Ok, so I got the email with a new revised pay stub to look over from the clerk's office this morning after sending them the correction about the pm vs am last night, so that's taken care of. There's just a big difference between 8 hours versus 20 hours worth of work for their books AND since I do it paid not volunteering my time, at $16.50/hr that 12 hour difference in my shift adds up to quite a bit of a difference in my check... Also, they need to make sure they have all the hours properly done for their own internal cross checks and bureaucratic paperwork.

Also, things are now moving forward with the car. Ross is bringing Viv with him coming to meet us at my work to remove the decals from the Prius at like 10:30 on Saturday. (Ross is my cousin Sabra's ex-husband who details cars; Vivian is Sabra & Ross's daughter with shared custody.)  I need to reach out to my insurance agent about switching my insurance from the Scion to the Prius and find out what the difference is and when to activate that or do the hand off for insurance and the title and also the transfer of the plates needs to be done. Just need to figure out the timing and process for the moving parts, lol.  And 10:30 is definitely more than early enough he can finish the job before I'll be heading over to Stoughton for dinner (probably either Viking Brew Pub or Wendigo) before the 7:30p show at Stoughton Opera house to see Della Mae. Also, haven't tried Dairyland Desserts yet (didn't even know they were a thing) but they look/sound delightful and I very much want to try pretty much everything AND they say they're open after the show and Google hours say until 11pm. (Stoughton Opera House shows tend to be early and end early -- the ghosties in the old building don't like it when the shows go too late so all shows their end at 10pm, lol. But as long as you don't mind the ghosts, the acoustics are INCREDIBLE in that space, especially for artists who sound amazing like to do a song or two a capella.) 

I took care of getting the written up form of all the APT dates (and who owes what to whom) AND I took care of the concert tickets I needed to pickup to help equalize between Crissy and me ticket purchases (outside of Irishfest season related spending.) It's like the moon was in Virgo or something... (I am the most productive with getting done my have tos weighing on my conscience during moons in Virgo, Capricorn, Scorpio, and Taurus.)

Everybody talks about Cancer placements being the great influence of the moon, but more should be said about the sister sign Capricorn across the zodiac finding the moon influencing their emotional world -- because I find with my moon in Capricorn I generally have a higher capacity than most people to set aside emotions to look at situations logically and in moments of crisis to triage what needs to get done then do it calmly and efficiently but in non crisis triage mode, my ability to act upon emotions and how the emotional forces swing me in my decision/activity is HIGHLY influenced by what sign the moon is. Not the phase of the moon, but the SIGN the moon is traversing.... I suppose maybe it's not just my Cap moon, it could be that I'm slightly more water and mutable dominant in my birth chart balance with my Scorpio stellium, Pisces ascendant, and Sag stellium (increasing the mutable to outweigh the cardinal AND it puts my Mars exactly conjunct my Neptune in Sag in the degrees of the galactic center right within a conjunction orb of my midheaven, which definitely binds my active motive force to both my own intuition/emotions AND the flowy watery oceanic sea of dreams) and so just all my emotions to guide my impulses/drives are dominated by tidal pulls because it's all oceanic within me when dealing with emotions inside me.   (Also, I've noticed about myself these last years of everything being so fucked up between us that I get very curious about my options then overthinking defensive and then very defiant about "why shouldn't I do something else that brings my heart joy?" whenever dealing with the moon in Gemini then Moon in Cancer then Moon in Leo. Which was the part of last week and this weekend I was the most fractious and fighting "well damnit this isn't changing and I've been waiting so long seeing nothing but blocks and third party interference fucking it up further and so maybe I SHOULD be considering and focusing my attention elsewhere..." But it's something a bit deeper in my inner currents than the flightiness that sound, so I wanted to explain for you what's going on inside me when this happens... it's like the moon in Gemini moves me out of the deep abiding patient love within me (Moon in Pisces, Moon in Libra, and Moon in Taurus is always when the unshakeable nature of the love inside me for Eric is at the peaks of their power/intensity to drown out any and everything else -- moon in Cancer, moon in Scorpio are when they are at their lowest ebb I question/reject the most strongly and I'm most likely to turn inward shut him out try to give him up let him go; usually in Cancer for selfish protective reasons usually in Scorpio for what I get to believing is his best interests) and for those 2.5 days it gets me thinking about the what ifs and other possibilities questioning myself what I want but never giving me answers and then the moment the moon moves into Cancer I feel inside me the deep abiding but most of the time buried hurting over the way it's all happened and how long it's taking and the fucking mess that was made over what should have been so easy... And that hurt in me just demands reassuring like a frightened mourning child, it just needs to hear, "Past is past but it's okay now, it will be good again because we will make it good." And when that reassurance doesn't happen to calm me into a healing modality, the hurting just gets felt deeper and deeper until something in me cracks open and a self protectiveness wakes up inside me says "enough! This doesn't get better unless I make it better -- I must build a callus into a shell over this so we can't keep being hurt this deeply by it." And it's from that the over thinking defensiveness builds that makes me doubt and pull away into myself to detach so I can make me let go to loon elsewhere. Long before there's the pride and defiance of moon in Leo telling me I can't be wrong in seeking whoever or whatever I choose to facilitate the healing of my heart so I can shine brightest, there's that transformational process shift inside me when the moon is in Cancer that converts the what ifs into the way I should be making a lateral move to protect me from being hurt again.... And, sometimes, as the moon is in Virgo moving back toward Libra, there's something in me questions and wonders, "but how would this pattern shift if you got that reassurance right when you were feeling the most vulnerable hurting and needed it? What then would you do in the 2.5 days of the Cancer moon and where would you seek to find your pride and shining joy for the 2.5 days of the Leo moon?" I can't answer that, it hasn't happened...but I would like to believe it could make all the difference in breaking out of the old cycles to build something new.)

 So no have tos (other than work and insurance related) the rest of this week until Sat meeting with Ross & Viv then heading to Stoughton for the Della Mae show and then on Sun is brunch followed by symphony. And then next week/weekend I have absolutely nothing in my calendar (other than work hour and the condo association replacing the carpet downstairs and on the stairs/landings next Mon/Tues which is going to mean off gassing which will mean me dealing with the migraines/light headedness for a while again but is what it is...) AND then the week after that nothing but work and checking on Henry a couple days at the start of the week until tickets for Black Violin on Apr 25 and Penny & Sparrow on Apr 26.

The car situation is my biggest have to still and that is mostly sorted and in the forward moving process which is what matters. it will be nice to have it done and have it be mine (and then I can have passengers other than my dog and coworkers which means I can go back to driving for shows and such.) Well, I desperately need to be home in daytime hours and not sleeping long enough to do laundry -- I pretty desperately have to do laundry since it's been a while. 

Also, I really didn't have much time for reading in March and first part of April, so unless I read a LOT in the coming weeks, that book list is so sparse I might just wait a bit longer before sharing. (I also haven't really required any new to me books across these months. Which is a little crazy, but I've been so busy with all the shows and travel for them that I haven't gone book shopping at all and the little libraries I have browsed have all disappointed me...) OR, I could look at this as a challenge and see how many pages I can read between now and May to get that page count up to something a bit less embarrassing for me, lol. AND, not only would it be fun for me, it would keep me at home with my nose in my books not stirring the pot seeking trouble because I'm getting fractious over how long I've been single now and not seeing movement forward so thinking I should go start something new make it manifest just to see how it might unfold.

 

 But the real reason I started this is because I didn't share this week's Astro Poets yet between the last couple posts so I figured I should before they start stacking up on me again. It's a very bright set for all the signs for this week tbh but here's just the two I've been sharing across their more than a year long dialogue and dance together.

"Week of 4/6 in Libra: You realize what is full of harmony now. It’s not just the space or conversation. It’s also you. Fill the surrounding music with more music. Know that beauty is everything that remains in the absence of itself."

"Week of 4/6 in Pisces: There’s so much that you have done. And yet it can’t be exactly what you most want. So you see into the future of things. The light on the stark cups. Drink from the love of the light."