After a month, maybe month and a half, of having lost my polar bear bracelet (a gift from Cath Cath a few years ago; Kahlo ties the bracelet purchase to a gift for scientific research/conservation of endangered animals, I have an app to show the movements of the monitor on a polar bear in the Arctic named Ella, at least that's the sales pitch) BUT I found the bracelet today!!!! I had separated some of the laundry backlog I need to do with the intention I'd start in on it this morning once it was 9am and so not breaking condo noise regulations (although everyone else does it seems.) As well as sorting the laundry I needed to start in on, I climbed up to replace the light bulb in my walk in closet/hall to the master bathroom that has needed it for a few weeks -- I'm tall for a girl with extra long wingspan, but my ceilings are 8ft high and then the cathedral ceilings in the living room so even I need to climb on something to change lightbulbs throughout my living space and cleaning the fan/walls in the living room is always a bit of a nightmare.... Anyway, I was turning a hoodie back right side out before washing it and the bracelet flew out of the sleeve went flying to land in front of the washing machine door.  I'm very excited to have my bracelet back, my left wrist has felt VERY naked without it and I tried other bracelets didn't help, but the strange thing is the sleeve I found it in isn't the shirt I'd been wearing when it disappeared -- it was a hoodie I'd worn quite a while after the disappearance. Whatever personal imp borrowed my bracelet and returned it to me, I'm just happy to have it back! 

I had thought it lost for good and I didn't want to just buy another, though that was an option considered, because it wouldn't have been a gift or have the energy of me wearing it day in day out for several years now. I was really excited and happy when I found it at like 9 this morning!

Anyway. That was probably the most exciting part of my day since I spent it doing laundry and reading (mostly making more headway through the ancient Greeks/Romans of Dryden's translation of Plutarch's Parallel Lives (I'm still in Volume 1 which I started way back in August but I'm ALMOST ready to move on to volume 2), but also some Nostradamus quatrains/analyses and some Frank Herbert short stories from the giant omnibus of his short works that I'm slowly making my way through -- I actually found Pack Rat Planet even more illuminating as a way that obedience can be the fastest way to fix totalitarian takeover attempts to handle this moment/crisis in the US than the study of tyrants/generals/venal powerful men of antiquity; particularly if you are interested in my analysis of the bigger pieces in play regarding the tariffs game and geopolitical chess pieces that are the wildcard moving parts happening right now from outside the Project 2025 playbook -- it's more than the venal money making stock manipulation or the "Putin's puppet" theory but it's not an analysis I want to put online right now so you have to discuss it in person with me because *gestures broadly at the world and AI over reach and the risks of being disappeared right now for being too smart/outspoken/clear-sighted*) and drinking tea (I took a break for coffee and a bowl of plain Greek yogurt with Nutella and maple syrup because I'm out of peanut butter right now) and doing light chores because I haven't done any Spring cleaning yet and everything is rather a mess around here because my March and early April was ridiculously busy. And the price of living by yourself independently with only fur babies and plants as companions is that you're the only one to do the fucking chores. And no matter how many gifts you have or your personal brownies that help keep things cleaner than they have any right to be when you're just not doing it yourself, the cleaning and the laundry piles up on you when you don't invest the time to take care of it.... Annoying but true even when you live a much more magical life than mundane folk. It could be a worse mess than it is, but it's messy enough I'd feel self conscious bringing anyone home to it right now. 

And now, I'm at work and everyone but me and Miss Waffles has had their drinks and left for the evening, and I am getting my last hours in for the week (about 5h 11m, which based on when I punched in means exactly 11p -- and I won't get another 4h in tonight beyond that and still be back here by 10a; so unless I lose track of time, I should be home before midnight.) Probably good I won't be staying too late because tomorrow I need to meet at work for Ross (with Viv because it's his weekend) to help take the work decals off the Prius for us. 

Speaking of the full moon! I think I've mentioned before how much I like Juliana McCarthy's explanations of astrological archetypes and placements (especially looking for the best and brightest we want to create while grounded in the realism of what is right now) and I really like what she had to say about this full moon tomorrow evening and the energies building into i and the fullness of what we can claim from it and the seeds we sowed under the eclipse new moon.

"A Libra Full Moon arrives on Saturday—the first lunation after eclipse season. This closes the portal of upheaval that we’ve been moving through since March. What’s been stirred, broken open, or revealed over these past weeks now lands in our bodies, hearts, and relationships. This is a Venus-ruled Moon, and Venus herself is stationing direct at this exact moment. Hovering beside Saturn in Pisces, she asks us to decide—What will we commit to? What matters enough to stay and work through the hard parts?

We aren’t escaping into elusive romanticism. This Full Moon illuminates the distance between us—the fractures, old stories, and quiet places of resentment or longing. Directly across the sky, the Aries Sun conjuncts Chiron, the Wounded Healer, triggering the raw tenderness of intimacy. We are at a threshold. It's time to acknowledge that real love requires work. This isn’t the moment to flee when it hurts, but to stay present and take responsibility. We’re repairing what can be repaired—and releasing what cannot.

This is also a Full Moon of justice, accountability, and truth. Libra’s scales are balancing not only our relationships, but our values and the structures of our lives—money, time, and resources. We are getting clear on what’s sustainable, especially in the midst of rising collective strain."

And something in that just thudded truth into my heart -- THIS is exactly what I've been questioning and struggling with trying to figure out for myself these last few weeks since the Aries New Moon blood eclipse. It felt like those words helped me zoom out be a bit more objective gave me a lens to help focus on what I've been wrestling with to see it understand it from a bigger/clearer perspective than while deep in the throes and subjective feels of questioning it over the last week or so. 

I plan to come back to those paragraphs about it and to think on them how they apply to the ways I've been feeling/reacting over the last week or two and let them sink in to ripple in me like a rock dropped in still water.  I feel like there are more ripples like sound wave propagation for me to better understand myself and the way things ARE in this moment of space/time right now if I sit with those words/ideas and how they encapsulate the energies pushing/pulling on everything. 

I tend to think there's always a balance of "what's me" "what's the other person" "what's third party interference" and "what are bigger dynamics in the wider framework that are reshaping energies like gravity waves" in trying to understand any set of emotions/reactions/interactions. (not so much interactions right now though -- if anything the last day or so when he HAS reached me down the bond (and is strongest across the predawn and sunrise hours) it's just been love and reassurance, the energy quality in the love is most like the soothing/calming of a horse that's spooked that you don't want to take off from whatever spooked it, if I'm willing to be a bit wryly honest about myself and the way I was reacting within the Gemini/Cancer/Leo moon time.) You can analysis paralysis TOO long because everything is always changing moment to moment, Heraclitus and the river y'know, but I do always find it useful to take a step back look at those four factors figure out what's in play and dominating things at any given moments so you can best figure out what's most beneficial for healthy growth patterns moving forward from here/now. 

Alex Myles also had a really resonating truth filled post about this Libra full moon, but it's WAY too long for me to share it all here and there isn't an easy except because it's all of it resonating within me and culminating/explaining what I've been feeling recently. You can look her up yourself on socials -- she gets reshared a lot without proper citation anyway so you may have even already seen it not realized it was from Alex.

 Anyway, I am going to listen to some podcasts and get some inputting done and enjoy my coffee and peanut butter cup milkshake from Mooyah that Karissa so kindly picked up this afternoon for me and other co-workers when she went there for lunch and was a happy surprise when I came into the office! Look, I'm a grown ass adult woman left to her own devices with unmedicated ADHD whose name means "G-d is my only judge" and who lives by herself with a dog and a cat and plants -- if I decide my dinner on a Friday night is gonna be a cuppa black tea and a coffee peanut butter cup milkshake, who are you to tell me I'm wrong?