I've let everyone know who I ought to tell about Audrey and the very real possibility that she could hemorrhage or internal bleed over the weekend if the prednisone doesn't suppress her immune system and allow her platelet count to start trending back upward. 

I told Mikaela first, and I did that early afternoon (because she wouldn't have forgiven me if she didn't get to say goodbye and didn't even know how significantly low Audrey's current platelet count is...) And I took pictures of Audrey as I gave her Mikaela's messages about how much she loves Audrey and that Audrey needs to get better.  Here's the progression of me giving her Mikaela's messages: 

(The yoga mat is currently on the bamboo to help Audrey getting up when her CCL tear was new so standing was hard for her. Now she just loves it.)

Mikaela also insisted on talking to Audrey on the phone this evening while Sarah was with Audrey while I ran to CVS quick for the otc prilosec for the dog (to help reduce chance of ulcers from not having 5-7 days break time between rimadyl and prednisone.) 

Yes Audrey recognizes voices she knows on the phone. And you would be astonished how many words she understands...

And I told Sarah (who immediately first words out of her mouth when she saw me was to ask how Audrey's blood work had come back) and almost immediately my parents who called about 5-10mins later to have me look at the csa site for what I want next week. (Karissa and Silas and Glenn also heard since they were in admin right as Sarah and I were talking. But I mean, they've all known Audrey for a decade or longer.) I also told Crissy this evening. And my sister was the first one to directly ask me, "Health problems with pets are really hard and traumatic whenever they happen -- how are you handling it?" which I appreciated. So she's also the only one who got the numbers and the admission that "this morning was rough when I got the news of how low her platelets currently are and how near to quality of life or euthanasia this weekend could be if the prednisone doesn't start helping fast."  (My sister is a Virgo stellium (sun, Venus, Mars) and so very detail oriented meticulous but ti's because she cares about not wanting people she cares about to hurt, but also has a Libra Mercury and both her moon and ascendant are Pisces. So she seems tougher and more strict rule driven than most people, but she feels everything intensely and deeply and takes things personally. And she and I actually have very similar communication and interaction styles because we both have Libra Mercury and Pisces rising. So as different as we are in so many ways, we communicate from both head and heart in very much the same ways.) Also. My sister know that if you ask me directly you'll get an honest answer (whether you like it or not is a different thing than the truth value of it) but if you don't ask then you'll only get whatever I choose to share -- which in matters of my own grief, pain, and sorrow is going to be the brave front optimism. If you want my honesty about my hurt or worries to help carry it, you generally must ask me directly.

Facebook (and thus other people who know and care about Audrey) doesn't yet know. But the most important people who care deepest about Audrey (and me) at a personal level or who see Audrey most frequently do know. And I'm continuing to do everything I can to do best by her to improve her health chances and favorable statistics. Just a lot going on and it's why my lack of symptoms and negative at home covid tests are why I haven't gone in for pcr yet even though so many people at work (and Mikaela) who were all maskless at the wedding and around work until Weds have chosen to pcr test.

Anyway. I'm going to go home now and heat up some chicken bone broth with carrots and cabbage in it for my dinner and Audrey. (Spock will get some too, it won't hurt him. But Audrey is the one who very much needs bone broth.)  Bone broth, cruciferous veggies, and carrots are all super high on the list of foods that will help dogs replenish platelets faster. As are eggs (which she's been getting her own portion every morning when I make my own because it's something I know she'll eat all of it and have a full tummy before I have her take her doxy) and salmon. And I'd been mentally considering if I wanted to cook salmon tomorrow night for dinner with the thunderstorms to take care of my plants watering and me not needing to get more hours in tomorrow.  And yes, that is indicative that I DID spend the time between talking to Erin and getting myself in a calm enough state to go pick up Audrey's meds and score lots of beef liver treats for Miss Audrey while at the vet office (chicken and beef liver are also very good for supporting platelet production) by forcing myself into logic knowledge acquisition brain researching the meds, med interactions, hard numbers reality level setting about ITF, and what I can do from a dietary perspective to assist her body in replacing the platelets that have been so depleted. It's the best thing I know for me to stop my heart hurting so deeply over could bes that are statistically likely but aren't yet written in the sands of fate yet -- to feed my head with knowledge instead of my heart with worst case scenarios overthinking. So that's what I typically do when I need to wrangle in my emotions in order to interact with people. (And I did have to do it as swiftly as possible today -- the sooner Audrey began her prednisone, the sooner we would be stopping her immune system destroying platelets and give her platelet counts a chance at improving rather than worsening. So I had timelines to manage to get her on the best possible paths toward recuperation instead of potential hemorrhaging over the weekend.)

P. S. Pupdate: 

The bone broth was an absolute hit with Miss Audrey Pupburn!!!! 

She'll get some more bone broth tomorrow. Going to make sure this sits well with her. But she's just been radiating her focused desire and joy since I opened the bone broth and put it on the heat. 

And it just makes me so very happy to see have done something to help her platelet numbers recover and to see her so incredibly happy about it!!