Just got inside from taking the dog out again. Sitting with the candles lit, a glass of red zinfandel and a cuppa Black Dragon tea, listening to the rain falling and about to go back to re-reading Tolkien's Unfinished Tales 

Well. Audrey made it through the night and the day without hemorrhaging, which was a definite concern when I talked to Erin about current platelet countz. (Anything lower than 20-30k platelets this becomes a risk.) And the Prednisone side effects (panting, increased thirst, increased hunger) have kicked in so hopefully the main things it does have as well. 

I also had a talk with my dog last night about her pills and she's taking them better now but prefers no pill pockets, just included with a hard crunch treat she like such as dried lamb lung or different type of jerky. She says the flavor and smell of pill pockets reminds her of when it's been a fight and I've gotten upset with her had to force them down the back of her throat, raise her head, and gently stroke her throat til she swallows.  The cat still loves the pill pockets so he's getting those.  Because Audrey at least takes her pills with other things and if not I know how to make her swallow them. But trying to pill a cat who makes it a battle?!?! Horrifically not fun. So if he thinks milk bone pill pockets are all the time potential treats, good!!! 

It probably also helps that the most Audrey's getting at the same time right now are 2 pills (the gabapentin and doxycycline.) I have named timers in my phone to keep my dogs pills straight and on schedule as much as possible (except while I sleep.) I guess I'm that person now, lol. But it does make it easier for me (and thus for her.)

Also. Not only did we walk the several blocks to the vet office sand back (half of it in the pouring rain) before dinnertime. But just now the little stubbornly stoic beastie decided to show me she. Could go down the stairs by herself just fine by starting the sneak down as I was locking my door. (Neighbor had propped open the fire door again.) She was so fucking proud of herself, stared at my finger told me if I wasn't going to use my splint and insist on stretching the ligaments before the swelling is gone enough to wear my ring, she can decided when she's ready to go down the stairs on her own without being carried. And then when we got inside she put her legs up on the first stair and looked at me (I've been lifting her up from that position as it's easier on her to support her without hurting her leg than when she's all 4 feet on the ground.) I said and said, "Fine. Just this once tonight. Since you insist you want to try, you can try it this one time. Then back to carrying you for 4-5 weeks recommended. And only on just the one flight of stairs.  I'll be right behind you. But if you have any difficulty or your right leg starts looking wonky, I'll be picking you up and carrying you." And damnit the stubborn little darling made it all no problem....

But that wasn't my reason for writing here.  I just wanted to say, whatever the thing with Odin. It doesn't matter to me in the sense of it would stop me from choosing Eric or being with Eric if opportunity allowed. I just brought it up because Odin is untrustworthy and I don't know what his interest is in Eric or why he wanted so much to get me to give up the bond forever while it was dormant.... Odin is persistent and crafty and I don't trust him even when I know what he wants -- I trust him even less when I don't know what he's after or why. You shouldn't trust him either. And it won't stop me from loving Eric and wanting him and choosing him if I can - it just gives me anxiety for Eric's sake over what Odin wants and why Odin thinks he has a claim on Eric. Because like hell Odin will take from me anyone or anything I have any damn right to call mine. But still I don't understand the why of Odin's interest in the matter. And I'd feel more chill about it if I knew why Odin thinks he has a claim on Eric if/when the bond with me is ever removed or if I knew that claim to be cancelled and nonexistent. It's not going to stop me from wanting Eric and choosing Eric at the first dang opportunity I have, but it's going to worry me until either I understand it or it's dealt with. Because Odin can NOT be trusted. 

Ooh thunder rolling in again now!!!! Candles and soft steady rain and thunder of a summer storm and red zinfandel wine and black tea and a good book and my dog is markedly improving... Happy sigh* as an introvert, this is such a wonderful delightful conflux of things to start Leo season! 

I'm going to read some more now. Probably not headed to bed til after 3am (Audrey's gabapentin and doxycycline are at 2pm, her next sucralfate slurry is at like 3am. And anyone, the storms won't end til nearly 4am.) Have a wonderful rest of you Saturday. 😘 Sweet dreams and may you find the courage to bring the best of them into your reality. A bientôt !

P. S. 2:02am addendum

Thunderstorm came in right after I posted this. And one lightning/thunder so near and so loud it got Audrey's hackles up started her barking AND made the magnets fall off the fridge.  Just around 2am lights started flickering and for a few minutes right at 2am all the power went out. (Luckily I had just finished steeping my tea and had candles still lit. Will we lose power again? More extensively then one rolling brown out? Je ne sais pas. On verra.....

(Also I somehow accidentally reverted this to draft last night immediately after posting it and only realized put it back up today. Whoops.)