I'm okay now. Or at least more okay. As okay as I'm going to be for the next while. Which is the best I got.

Went with Audrey to the vet (Audrey loves to go there for the treats and the people and to sniff the columns outside) to get her Prednisone and sucralfate (which she has to take every 8hrs as a slurry from a syringe. We'll see how that goes. 🙄 I also have to stop by a pharmacy to get some Prilosec for her, which should be taken once daily but not within 30-40mins of the sucralfate.... So many pills and Audrey is currently at a point of rejecting all pill pockets types. Ever since adding the doxy in the mix.

In other news, my Uncle Jomi in Germany (who was recently diagnosed with pancreatic cancer) is under the knife today to have his pancreas and spleen and something else my mom couldn't remember removed. Also my mom as well as Pete and Ian at work now have COVID. (My mom and Pete with symptoms, Ian positive test but minimal symptoms.) So now everyone in admin is getting PCR test today (Mikaela as well because she was in unmasked multiple days this week.) Crissy has been testing negative but has been feeling sick all week so been staying home. I haven't tested positive and I have no symptoms (not even migraine symptoms of any kind since Sat/Sun.) But I will at least rapid test me if not PCR. 

So I haven't yet told anyone else about Audrey's health news from today because everyone who should be told is sick or wrapped up in fears of getting sick. It can wait until next week when her next CBC blood test is to see if her platelets count improves with the Prednisone.  So mostly I'm just carrying this news and the possibility that Audrey may be on her last couple weeks of life on my own. I'll tell people. Just nobody has asked yet and instead they're all texting me about their own COVID symptoms and/or tests so I don't need to worry then with news about my dog..... Not yet.... I'll do my best to make certain people get to say goodbyes if her platelet count gets worse and that's where we're at. On verra. I wish though that I wasn't having to fight her to get her meds down her now that the doxy has made her stop taking the pill pockets of any sort.  I hate that she's miserable and might be end of life quite suddenly due to the platelet counts and I'm spending time forcing her to swallow pills as a battle rather than just loving up on her....  

I should go make me some food. Audrey won't eat unless/until I eat. She's always been that way since she was a ouppy. Even with a full bowl of food sitting out, she has to see me eat or prepping myself food before she'll touch hers. And her next round of meds (except the sucralfate and Prednisone which I'll give her now -- I'm going to be giving her the Prednisone which increases hunger at a different time from the doxy and gabapentin, just to not tox out her system) will be in a couple hours. And the doxy requires she have a full tummy or it can cause nausea and decreased appetite.

P. S. The sucralfate slurry and the Prednisone she took easily, no battle. She didn't like the experience of slurry by syringe but she took it easily once she realized. She's also generally good about the gabapentin. The doxy pills are the ones that are a major battle tbh. I'll be quite glad when that course of antibiotics is done next week.... 

And. I am very hopeful that the Prednisone will help with her platelet numbers. It's just that with her numbers 1/10 the low end of normal and the fact we're nearing the point she could easily bleed out if they get any lower, it's actively a hard thing for me right now unless/until her numbers go up on her platelets.... Thankfully it's not Irishfest season and I'm around for her, both emotionally and for the meds so she's not relying on my parents who are both sick or Sarah to do it while she's needing more frequent care. 

P. P. S. I've told Mikaela (who has gi upset and sore throat and was around my da and the other people at MCW while contagious so she hasn't tested positive yet for COVID but it's a real concern.)  I haven't told anyone else, but I told Mikaela because she takes losses hard and I want to give her as much info and warning as possible with the promise that barring a sudden emergency decision she will get to say goodbye.  Mikaela still hasn't forgiven her dad for not letting her say goodbye to their dog when he died when she was five and she doesn't really remember a time without knowing Audrey, so yeah. I needed to let her know even more than anyone else needed to be told.  The good news is that when the doxy started depressing her appetite, I started making her eggs for herself not just for me and eggs are important for platelet production. Also all the cruciferous veggies she loves. And apparently chicken bone broth (home made or no sodium) is one of the best ways to help get platelet counts up. Also salmon and liver/kidney