I'm still not feeling overly wordy or chatty (or emotionally at sea) -- mostly I'm feeling overwhelmed by plans, lol. Hey Aries season while the moon's in Sagittarius, how you doing? 

Just finished the second to last of my Irish month concerts on Sunday with the Skerryvore show up in Appleton. Last last is Tim O'Brien at Stoughton Opera House this Friday night. Technically he's a bluegrass artist, but given his last name and that he's also an Irishfest alumni I'm going to count him as part of my Irish month concerting season.  It's actually a very funny story about Tim O'Brien having played Irishfest. In 2011, at Summerfest, I was just causally eating a red icee at what was then the US Cellular stage (no idea it's current name, but the one closest to the Art Museum and Children's Museum entrance) while waiting for a Neon Trees show (Summerfest being in late June/early July before Milwaukee Irishfest which is always on the 3rd weekend in August) when I suddenly turned to Crissy and said, "I can't wait until we see Punch Brothers on this stage at Irishfest!" She looked at me like I was completely batshit as I blithely went back to eating my red flavored icee and said, "WHAT?! Don't you mean Summerfest?!" And I shook my head decisively side to side, ate another bite of my red flavored ice and happily said, "Nope! I mean Irishfest. They're definitely going to play Irishfest. Not this year, obviously. But soon. In the next year or so.  I know it makes absolutely no sense. But it's going to happen. I've seen it. I can't make it make sense, I just know it will be." She just shook her head and said, "Dani. I've never known you to be wrong in your second sight glimpses of the future. But this one really makes no sense. I mean no sense at ALL!" And I gleefully grinned, "I know!! I love that about it! I have no idea how it can possibly be true, but yet I know that it will be. I saw the future flash when I sat down on the benches. Just suddenly saw them playing here with the Irishfest banner and stage name behind them! I can't make any sense of what I saw, but I  saw it. And it's an immutable. So it will be. I can't wait to see how it unfolds!!"  She spent the entire next month and half laughing at me teasing me about his one for being crazy and me just happily certain about it with no idea how it would happen. Then at The Scattering in August, they announced the theme for the following year (generally a county of Ireland so artists from that county get featured, but sometimes a Canadian province or other Celtic community) was going to be "Roots and Branches, Irish influenced Americana and bluegrass artists" and I just whooped super loud started jumping up and down like I'd won the lottery and Crissy just turned to me shaking her head and said, "Well. I guess I understand now how you're going to get to see Punch Brothers at Irishfest. Only you, fairy child... Only you...." Me chirpily, "Don't tell me you're not happy about it! They haven't announced it yet! But they will. In about 6 months or so once they have them confirmed and contracts signed they'll tell us Punch Brothers on the schedule. But don't tell me you aren't happy at the juxta of it!" She laughed shaking her head, "Of course I'm happy. And I won't doubt your precogs again. Crazy spoiled elf witch."  Anyway, there were a LOT of my favorite bluegrass artists with strong Celtic ties randomly at Irishfest in 2012, including Punch Brothers and Aoife O'Donovan and Tim O'Brien, and it was the first time that We Banjo 3 were invited.  It was a solidly great year, even if it made absolutely no sense at the time that I got insistent about how we were going to see Punch Brothers at Irishfest. And the randomness of 2012 is how/why Tim O'Brien is an Irishfest alumni as well as having the last name to count for an Irish month show, lol.

Also, that is absolutely 100% the sort of thing you should expect if you choose to have me in your life, lol. Random giddiness over inexplicable future events that I can't fathom how it could make sense but I just know it will come true. (Or sorrowing/preparing for traumatic big events before they occur. I suffer as I celebrate, out of sync with the normal linear flow of time.) For me, that's a completely normal typical interaction with people I know and trust and who don't get weirded out by my gifts because they accept it as "typical Dani." I have a personally imposed blackout on precogs about sports, because otherwise they're boring, and I have asked and been granted to not get any precogs whatsoever about anything that would affect money/investing/gambling as that becomes an ethics issue. But other than that, anything that sends ripple through the fate lines, be they personal or localized or global, is fair game for my precogs. The more emotions an event triggers in me, the more intense and the further back the precogs tend to travel. But also, they only emanate outward from the choice that fixes the rivet point of the fate lines to be certain which one the future will hold. Until the choice is made that SETS the fatelines, it's all just possible pages for me to rifle through and try to pick the best. Precogs once choices are made set specific paths in motion are what I get the flashes and ripples from, both the contingent ones I can still alter and the immutable ones that nothing I do can alter.  But that sort of "This makes absolutely no sense how it could ever be, but it will be and finding out how that happens makes me so happy and I can't wait until we get there for it in linear time and find out how it come to be!!!" giddiness is VERY typical of having me in your life, lol. 

Anyway. So Tim O'Brien on Friday.  And then Mikaela is off this week. And Alana is going to come up to Madison on her day off to spend some time with us and see the munchkin. And then tonight, not only finalized remaining Irishfest season plans (don't try to see me in August unless your plans are to be in Dublin Ohio, LaCrosse/Minneapolis, or Milwaukee across the first three weekends (ish) in August) but we ALSO took care of APT tickets tonight. (That was also my doing. I told Crissy on Sunday that I needed her to come into do it and Tuesday end of day was the best window to make it happen and get it done.  So now we have tickets to everything up the hill except A Raisin in the Sun (cast looks amazing, and I'm sure it will be a phenomenal production -- but I don't really enjoy the play....and it's likely to go on sale later in the season) and 2 of the 4 plays in the Touchstone (The Moors and Stones In His Pockets.) We didn't know the other two and they sounded weird. But we're going to look into them before April 29 and see if the plays seem like they could be worthwhile and make a call to order them if we so decide. My mom took care of the big group ones and I ordered the other medium to small group sets.  So that's done. Have to write them into my physical/Llewelyn's calendar, but the planning is done. Also Concerts on the Square is back this summer for Weds evening plans. We're going to miss the most interesting of them all to me, but also Karissa said she wanted to go along for Hamlet so that meant limits to family 4 pack nights as opposed to buying 3 in the fall for Crissy, Mikaela, and me. (The 16 year old ADORES her stabby stabby Shakespeare tragedies best of all the Bard's plays, that's my influence, but neither my parents nor her mom enjoy them. But at least we're to the point that she and her mom agree with me and know she will go with us instead of me insisting that she must come with us to Macbeth because it's important and the munchkin will love it, lol.) 

As of tonight when I head home I'll have about 60% of my hours in for this week. (probably around bar time as opposed to waiting until sunrise given that I'm planning to shower and come back into work tomorrow to hang out with the 16 year old and then also Alana and Crissy later after lunch or across dinner time. My cat has been feeling lonesome because he forgot how concert season works because covid just meant I stayed home a lot more since when I don't have concerts or theatre or family visiting plans, I'm a stay at home bibliophile/gardener/woodland wanderer hermit introvert and I consider it completely normal to not see any living humans for weeks or months at a time unless they actively seek me out, lol. Unless you're family, your best bets to find me is to entice me out into public situations with music or theatre or to find me in my wandering hikes or to try to find me at Farmer's market on Saturday mornings or while I'm in my garden or at work or at a bookstore whenever I decided budgets don't matter because money is all imaginary fiat human construction but knowledge and stories are something enduring that matter across lifetimes) I expect that Thursday and/or Saturday will be my at home doing chores and tidying up Spring cleaning days. Thursday because of the weather going from several days of rain into mixed precip and dipping below freezing, Saturday just to have a break if possible unless I have to finish out hours.  Then next week I'll have to do a deposit and get all sorts of hours in and next Thursday I fly out to visit my sister, brother-in-law, nephew, niece, Chicken (cat) & waffles (dog), and the not yet born nibling. (Listed in order of how long they've been in my life, lol)

And then I'm out in Seattle/Kirkland area until April 14th when I come back home. And then nothing for the latter half of April except catching up on work which means waking up the garden and planting new seeds and I think only one appointment for my grandma in the calendar and concert tickets to the farewell tour for BeauSoleil on the 22 or so. (They're a primarily francophone Cajun/creole/folk/bluegrass/zydeco/roots/they don't fit into any particular genre band from Louisiana that has been playing and composing tunes together longer than I've been alive and who I discovered back in high school and I love them and I'm sad they're retiring and regret all of the La Fête de Marquette free shows they played in town that I couldn't make but promised myself "next time" and now I'm all out of next times except this farewell tour...They're amazing though! And while all of their instrumentation is incredible, their rollicking fiddle licks are INSANELY mind-blowing! And so much high energy fun to dance to! Quite impossible not to at least tap your feet when the fiddle starts in on any BeauSoleil song or tune, lol.)

But May looks pretty chill. Aries season is a whirlwind and it's generating so many of my plans for later in the year (Leo season since I was 17 is always the blur of Irishfest season for me -- crazy full of music and laughter and dance and travel and friends and the drama of too many egos in a room and more music and drinking whiskey with my Irish folk, lol, Virgo season is like Taurus season for me, it's always the chance to breathe and recharge after the madness and catch up on late season gardening work and long rambles in the woods and start getting excited for apple season changing of leaves and the advent of birthday/spooky season) being made all at once... But Aries and Leo seasons (and often the week or so leading into them) are always complete madness in my world. So right now, all the things to be doing in my next month are overwhelming me. Once Taurus season hits, I have space for new plans and happy surprises and life unfolding and getting my hands in the dirt to bring forth a riot of flowers and enjoy the new greenness of all the world waking up.

But right now I'm still in the midst of my Aries whirlwind, lol. First half of Pisces season is always slow and dreamy and being at home and enjoying the hygge in the calm before the storm -- but once I cross the threshold of Mardi Gras, St. Patrick's Month shenanigans take over and end of Pisces season is a whirl of all my Irish friends and music and whiskey/Guinness addiction/escapist aspects of Pisces as I whirl myself into Aries madness and new beginnings, lol. I measure my life in the natural seasons, the astrological seasons, and ebbs/flows of my friendly sociable introvert lifestyle -- and somehow that madness all tends to align for me.  I'm excited for all the things, but I'm also definitely looking forward into relaxing into the new growth and flowers and fecundity and time for surprises and slowness of Taurus season, lol. But that's still a month and a lot of plans and doing all the things away from me.

But anyway. second half of April and May. That's when I'll have time to slow down and breathe and have room and space in my life for reflection and new growth and happy surprises. Until then it's just whirlwind in my world and my life right now, even with all my Irish lads returned back home again post St. Patrick's month, lol. That's your next window of opportunity to not be lost in the whirlwind of all the madness of my plans and travels and movement and focus on everyone and everything else. Second half of April or May. That's your next window if you've now completely missed the winter hygge time snuggle by the fire and smile at the snow but other than long walks in the sparkle fluff it's mostly joy in keeping the house at hame curled up into the music and books and hot tea and tasty slow cooked meals of winter. Taurus season, my north node this life, is your next window of opportunity for further introspection and inner growth and to try to get my attention bring me the flowers of happy surprises and unexpected joys showing up in my life.

P.S. Also. The last 24 hours, so much intense love and connection down the bond. Didn't expect that. Not certain what to do with it. No idea where it's going or how it can grow in the current way things are. But it's there and it's warm and full of light and love. And so it makes me happy and I'm not going to push it away. I'm okay with accepting, "I don't know how to bring this into my everyday life and I haven't had a damn precog involving any future paths with you since your sister's choices back in Oct 28, 2018 and every subsequent choice to double down on the defensiveness about those initial choices and all the consequences of not choosing honesty and bringing truth into the light and facing it to clean things up" and also accepting "there's still this connection and bond and it is a source of light and love and strength regardless of if it only exists in the spirit not manifest into our 3d lives in this lifetime" as where we are at right now. I'm just sort of in an inner space of accepting that these are both truths and while they seem irreconcilable because I can't see a way to square the circle, they are both still the truths of this life at this time and that there can be no growth or change without sitting with the hard truths and accepting their isness, even when they conflict with each other and obstruct paths from unfolding in easier, less complicated, ways.  Right now I'm sitting in the space of accepting the truths as they are in this moment and not making any attempts to reconcile them since there is nothing within my choices that can reconcile them since it wasn't my life that setup this scenario and these truths that are at odds with each other as far as any form of targeted actions or goal setting or shared life paths.. right now I am merely accepting all the truth of what is in this lifetime and where things are right now -- because that's all I can do with the hand I currently have to play. But that does require of me that I accept and acknowledge the beauty and warmth and love and light and strength down the bond and all the promise in it of could bes.  Because that's a part of the truth. And trying to deny that truth or ignore isn't a healthy way out of this mess. Even if this lifetime means me letting him go and finding another path with someone else who can give me a lifetime surrounded by love for me as I am, I'll never deny that bond IS. He doesn't have to be the center of my life if that's not where his life path choices lead him this life, it's all a matter of free will choices and I can't make his for him. But my nature and thus my choices won't allow me to deny the ISNESS of the bond, even if I simultaneously accept that the bond may not now manifest into my external life path and my happiness in this lifetime.  That is the balance point of acceptance that my journey since Oct 28, 2018 has brought me to -- and unless circumstances change, it is the internal equilibrium I will be moving forward with. What else would you ask me to do to find my inner peace and balance and to stay in this lifetime given my own created rules for this reward life given the choices I have at my disposal in the context of the choices other people have made?