It's somehow nearly 3:30 and I got distracted listening to BeauSoleil and inputting and didn't head home..... 😂 Whoops! Classic Dani "time is a human construct" moment there.

So I guess I'll just wait out the rape o'clock wee hours and keep working and head home to my very lonely cat after pre-dawn/sunrise. Which will safely get me across the 2/3 of my hours for the week threshold.  Which will make the rest of my week much easier more manageable by me cramming all of my hours in across Mon-Weds. And then I'll have to do my best across Sun-Weds to get all of next week's hours in and pack and get all my Spring cleaning done before I fly out westward.

But also. yeah. Still working. Not home. Not sleeping. Only my poor Taurus cat Spock waiting disconsolately for my return. 

And yeah. I'm still single. I've told you, I got tired of breaking hearts that didn't deserve it and casual dating and wasting my time/energy on relationships where I could see the end before the beginning. Thankfully I came to that decision before the age of apps and I never considered joining any of the dating sites because I was having too much fun dating without attachments in college. Which never worked out for me as expected....always ended up hurting them even when we both said up front it was casual for fun never intending to be serious. Doesn't mean I won't date anyone ever. Bond or no bond, I can't allow the choices of other people to steal my sunshine. If that dream is not to be in this life, well, there's still good and beauty and love in this life for me to find and cherish. I can't make other people's choices for them, but also I can't live my life defined by other people's choices either. So I won't promise that I won't ever date or be in a serious relationship with anyone else if Eric doesn't choose me. that's never what I promised. I promised that if he found me and chose me and we could have any lifetime together, I'd choose him every time, every life I could. But if he doesn't choose me, it doesn't mean I'll wall off my heart from all other lovers..... But I know me and I also know that both my heart and my soul have to feel it worth my time and emotional investment and I'll be willing to go into it with my whole self. Or not at all. I've always been one to jump in the deep end once I decide to do something. And anyway. I only wish for him the happiness he chooses and seeks for his life. I always will wish him that, but if it doesn't include me then I can enjoy the happiness I find along my wanderings and i can do so with a whole heart and a clear conscience that I have never knowingly done wrong by him -- I just always have given him the freedom to choose his own life path even when it didn't fit with my life path. That was always a clause in all my promises to him. So long as he wanted me and chose me, I'd choose him. Those promises don't apply in any life where he doesn't want or need me for his life's happiness.  Because that's the only fair thing to do, for myself and for any/everyone else. But I'm not actively looking. Just will gratefully accept whatever gifts my life path opens for me.  So I've been happily enjoying life as a single lady who isn't actively looking -- I figure the Universe will send me whoever is right for me in the Divine timing of when we can build something beautiful together as a happy surprise. And until then, I'm just playing and wandering through the world like a will o the wisp making things brighter for my touch upon them. 

Including stacking my hours ridiculously in a short span of time working til sunrise so I can concert and travel and rest as needed. (but also I'm getting old enough that tomorrow afternoon me is probably going to be VERY displeased with late night me. And I'm going to need much sugar and caffeine to get me through to the second wind, lol. Did I tell you that i have 2 silver hairs?! And I think they're ACTUALLY silver this time, not just ash blonde highlights that then turned copper then auburn after a couple months like the last silver hairs I thought I had.)

And first light is in just a few hours at 6:28am, sunrise at 6:57am. Because after the equinox.