I should also, in full honesty, say I actually have no idea WHAT Eric shared that set me off said, 'Fuck it I'm done if he's STILL going to be actively involved in fucking bullying to cover his sister's arse after she blocked me on the band Instagram account and refuses to address this or even respond to me even when I've brought it up on Facebook or Twitter."

It wasn't the one thing in itself.  It was the "one more thing on top of aeverything done before" that made it the last straw for me....

Genuinely,  I didn't even see it. So I have no idea if it was from the band account like I assumed, from Brittany who blocked me on her personal account on October 27 (the night of the Tree of Life Synagogue shooting when I just wanted some comfort to not feel so alone and targeted as a Jewish woman born in Israel and that's the only reason I responded to her sharing the video whatsoever because I was hurting and it made me sad to think I could no longer go see the band I loved who had a new not country at all song that I loved) the night before I was blocked on the band account on Oct. 28 for stating the same thing I'd said to her (about how I love Hands Dirty but was sad I'd never see it live as the twanging of the country music before they even got onstage caused me so much pain I could no longer attend their shows so long as they were any part of the country music scene), or Liz (who blocked me in May 2018 when i told her, "Unfortunately, for me it's NOT still rock and roll to me when you have the country vocals involved as the twang causes me intense pain due to my color-timbre synesthesia" in response to her picture in the red fringe coat in NYC using a Billy Joel lyric as caption. (Photographic memory. Even if it's in long term archival storage, anything I see or hear is there like archival video footage. It's slower to get to it for things like names if I've quick retrieval mentally filed it away as, 'Biblical man's name that starts with P." but I can find it if I just ask myself when I first learned it or would have heard it and I choose to go rewatch my internal footage. I'm literally not allowed to forget anything. Even if I drink to the point I have an out of body experience and watch my body stop breathing, I remember EVERYTHING all along the way even what set me off drinking to try to forget it.)

I don't know for certain what he shared or from which of the three accounts the girls chose to block me on for telling them that the country music caused me physical pain and I was sad it was bad enough pain to stop me attending Delta Rae shows. I don't know if he was sharing a post, sharing a story, or what from one of the three accounts. I don't know if it was something I OUGHT to have loved if I could have seen it. i don't know if he somewhere in his brain thought if HE shared it on his account I could see it (I can't. That's not how blocking works. You share content from an account that has blocked a person -- not restricted, blocked -- then that person simply sees that you've shared a story but no matter how many times or ways they try to click on it they can't view the story and on their view it shows as however many less stories shared as your total with the blocked content visible. So if you've shared 3 stories and 2 from the band account, everyone not blocked sees all five stories but everyone blocked sees 3 stories and a perpetual circle around your account that you have an unwatched story. And that's why simply sharing ANYTHING from the band account while fans are blocked there IS relational bullying EVERY time you share it. Before Brittany even started in on her "you have to follow us on our instagram account to see exclusive content" power trip this fall/winter.)

I know that Brittany's behavior on this subject, start to finish, has been nothing but intentional cruelty and ostracism and bullying. And EVERY time he supports her or takes part in her plans for what should be done live or who should be sharing on the band instagram or who should be mentioning ONLY the band instagram, it is an act on his part of KNOWING cruelty in taking part of her system of ostracism and bullying that she created. By doing that for her,  he made himself directly complicit in her campaign of bullying and deliberate cruelty, not just having it done by her in his name.

And that's why I decided, "Fuck it. I'm done. I don't have the emotional capacity for the hurt and anger I feel toward him when he does this and acts as her pawn in her deliberate campaign of bullying. If she's going to be a bitch and a bully rather than ever admit she's in the wrong and he feels that as her brother he needs to do as she asks even when she's doing wrong and acting in deliberate cruelty. then fuck him . Fuck them both. Fuck them all. Clearly there's nothing here worth me holding onto since he's always going to be capable of engaging in her casual cruelty and justifying it as she's his sister so he has to protect her even when she's done wrong and is asking him to do wrong."

Because I don't have the energy or patience or capacity for further drama and hurting from acts of intentional cruelty that don't even need to happen you are just CHOOSING to be party to at this time.  I have more than enough legitimate drama and pain going on in my life that can't be stopped, only helped carry and healed where possible and collectively grieved over within my family. I ain't got time or need to pussy foot around bullshit drama created by a campaign of continuous intentional cruelty and acts of passive-aggressive ego driven pride because you're hurt someone told a truth you didn't want to hear, didn't want known, and now you're depressed and anxious because the truth is coming out and the reality is it shows that you can be a real shitty person when you don't get your way and there's literally no way to excuse your behavior of over a year except owning you did wrong then got defensive and so did greater wrong to try to continuously cover it up - but instead of owning up or fixing it,  you ask your older brother to protect the promise you made because you "just can't" right now with all this so you make him choose between doing the bullying for you or disappointing people she made an email promise to all while guilt tripping him for abandoning his little sister in her hour of anxious  depressive manipulating him need.  Please,  you're a grown ass adult and this is literally completely a situation of your making and perpetuating - take some fucking respinsibility for your own actions and choices for once in your life.  Dear Lord....  If you are that immature and can't grow up and do the right thing in a situation like this, then you can fuck off -- you have no place in my life if that's the sort of behavior you're going to condone or take part in.