I am entering into the third day of the worst non-migraine headache from the Quebec fires smoke... In case you were wondering how bad it is right now:

It's been getting steadily worse all night. And I have intentionally turned all HEPA filters up to highest settings (even installed a brand new one in my bedroom) and have been wearing my n95 outside and i can still smell the smoke and it still makes my throat itch gives me laryngitis. Also, the particulates make my eyes burn horribly enough to make me minimize my use of contacts when the air quality is this bad. (small micro particulates and gases can get themselves embedded within the soft plastic and do damage to your eyes when you put them back on -- it's why even with vented goggles, you still had to wear glasses because contacts were not allowed in any chem, o chem, a chem, or biochem lab work i did.) I will have to wear my contacts later today though after this sleep because I am taking grandma to an afternoon appointment then heading to Spring Green for the first play of the season! (The Liar, translation from the French play; big group of us.) For that much driving, I need to wear my contacts because my prescription is bad enough that my peripheral vision is super blurred around the frames of glasses so I try not to drive much without wearing contacts instead. Even when the air quality is this bad....

But also, the air quality is worse right now because I am trying to move the worst of the smoke we will get through before we sit outside for picnic and outdoor play BUT hold off the much needed rain (the front that will drive the smoke back eastward from here) until after the play is done. So it's delicate business weather witching for my evening June 28 plans to be optimal and it means right now it's terrible outside... my poor bird and bee friends..... This is so hard on them with how they breathe.... Harder on them than my wild critter animal friends....

Last several days, everything smells like smoke and the skies are grey and sunrise isn't a brightening, the sun is very red disc in sky until  nearly midday. 

Bedtime now. Going to need to get up to shower and then make food and get ready before taking my grandma to her appointments. And budget the extra exhaustion for the taking Waffles outside portions because even through the n95, the bad air makes me so dang tired physically. Not spirit energy, I have so much of that in me I was shattering glassware in the evening just by touching it. (A coffee pot that was on the top of the fridge fell toward me while my hands were full when I opened the door and i reflexively shove it away from me with energy so it shattered when it got near me then fell to the floor, i blamed the shattering on when it hit the floor. And then later I was making cocktails for me and my parents and Sarah and I touched one of the rocks glasses with my right hand (power flows in my left out my right general state of being like breathing, but in big works where I am conduit to a lot of power, it flows out both hands) and where my thumb touched the glass I grabbed with my right hand, it cracked the glass horizontally then straight up to the rim, like a J. I can grab a picture of it at work if i remember.)

 Anyway, the smoke makes my limbs heavy and slow and my body exhausted, but the amount of raw spirit energy flowing through me right now while my body is so tired is insane. Not sure why I'm humming so live wire, but if I can't find a reason or way to use it, I'm definitely going to break more things accidentally....

P. S. Aaaaaand when I checked right before posting this and sleeping, it's even worse.... 

Bet it hits over 250 before I fall fully asleep. I wonder if it's still this bad tomorrow if we should reschedule 1) my grandma's appointment (as hard as the glaucoma specialist is to see) because my grandma is in her mid 80s and has asthma so two reasons any exposure to the outdoor air would be horrible for her right now and 2) APT because that can't be good for us or the actors if it's this bad this evening... Hopefully they will consider rescheduling/honoring tickets another night, for the actors as much as the patrons.... Although, Spring Green is north and west of here so they are at least a bit better air quality than we are in Madison. East of us is even worse....