I'm willing to believe that the INTENTION of Britt wasn't to break everything,  that the intent was, "just follow us and I'm the one who does this so I'll make sure I interact with you positively."  And I'm choosing to believe that because my general philosophy of people is that most of the hurtful things people do are accidents-- accidents due to not realizing consequences, or an ego blinder driven lack of empathy/awareness of how your actions affect others, or strong emotions making people volatile so they're unpredictable and/or lash out.

I'm willing to believe there was no ill intent - but my beliefs and the intentions of others don't change the facts.  They don't change the fact that someone blocked me. They don't change the fact that the account doesn't exist and cannot even be seen/found by me unless/until someone on the account unblocks me.  They don't change the fact that blocking ANY fan on the official band account then posting things ONLY on that account created a system of ostracism. It doesn't change the fact that the ostracism made anyone going live or posting to the band instagram account guilty of being party to it.  They don't change the fact that telling people to find you on instagram or posting other platforms you'll go live on instagram IS relational bullying once you have established a system of ostracism by blocking people.  They don't change the fact that when told "hey, I was blocked so I can't even be a part of this though I'd like to" you never acknowledged or responded,  just gaslit the situation pretending if you ignored it then it wouldn't be true.

And my beliefs and intentions don't alter the facts of the damage done as a consequence of this past action that was never addressed or fixed by anyone with the ability to do something about it.

My beliefs about the intentions behind those comments don't alter the facts about how blocking works or how someone who's blocked will respond to being told to find the account that blocked them and thus doesn't exist they can't see anything from.  Blocking IS bullying,  not self care,  in all instances except bots and trolls.  And there's nothing but lying to yourself and others and being guilty of cruelty and bullying to whoever you blocked in any other rationalizing of it.It's no different than a kid's birthday party that everyone is invited to but one person but then you talk about it in front of that kid to make sure they know how fun it is and they're not invited. That is PRECISELY the sort of relational bullying that Liz, Brittany, and now Eric have made themselves guilty of because of this.

And there's literally NOTHING that the victim of being blocked can do to try to understand why or open up lines of communication for as long as your account has them blocked. They can only accept that you don't want them in your life,  don't want to be friends or even acquaintances (even complete strangers who don't follow you but view your posts/profile have more access to you than an account you've blocked) and that what the blocker wants is for the person they blocked to not exist in their life.

And there's literally nothing I can do from my side to fix any of this. I tried telling you,  and you ignored it. And then compounded things made them worse.  The only fixing or healing starts with acknowledging and fixing what happened last year.  And it can't be done by the victim of social media bullying,  by the person who was blocked, it must be fixed by the account that did the blocking and by the person(s) guilty of cruelty - even if it was accidental cruelty,  it doesn't make the results of the past action(s) any less cruel.

I'm willing to believe there wasn't malicious intent in telling someone you blocked to find an account that literally doesn't exist to them - but that doesn't change the consequences of the past actions that brought us to this point and it certainly doesn't alter the way I reacted or the further hurts that trying to shift the responsibility like that have now piled onto this dynamic....

*shrugs* And it sure as hell doesn't change the hurting anyone is feeling over this situation.  You want to start healing everyone's pain,  then start by dealing with the root cause.  Start by going to the blocked list,  unblocking,  and acknowledging that this all HAPPENED (even if it was a mistake,  you can't fix the mistake without acknowledging and admitting it happened) and move forward so as not to be constantly creating new problems from the consequences of the one that happened last year.
That's the only way this even starts down a path of healing instead of me walking away and everyone weighed down with hurt,  sorrow, anger,  and regrets.  And unfortunately, none of what needs to be done to even begin the process of healing is within my abilities to do.  My choices are to accept remaining in this toxic situation or to leave it.  The choices that allow for healing the relationships and purging out the poisons are all in the hands of other people,  the people who are able to change the current power dynamics by dealing with the sins of the past actions. It is quite literally out of my hands as the victim of the blocking that created the system pf ostracism to do anything to begin to fix this.  And it's why my choice after a year of refusal to even acknowledge the facts of what happened by those who can fix it, since they're the ones with access to the blocked list and thus the ones who control the line of communication as well as the reins of the bullying behaviors itself,  that it's necessary for me to do the ONLY thing in my power to do in this toxic situation - and that is to sever all ties to everyone involved in it and for me to leave.  No matter how much it hurts me and everyone  about me leaving and the levels of unhealed pain/grief this has created,  it's the only thing left I can do not to create continuous toxicity and add to pain of hanging onto this relationship with the ostracism and bullying that the decision to block me (or any fan)  created....

Beliefs and intentions matter less here than facts, actions,  consequences of those actions,  and acknowledging the pain of these consequences for everyone.  And it's why if anyone other than this healer wants to heal this instead of giving up in defeat,  the only actions of healing have to be done by someone with access to the blocked accounts list on the Delta Rae instagram account.  Someone who can acknowledge and dig out the root cause of all this poison that's infected every part of this set of relationships and can only continue to poison any further interactions if it remains there poisoning everything no matter how good the intentions.

As a very old soul who is as much a healer as a fighter,  I can tell you what must be done to heal this.  But knowing what must be done and having the capacity to do it are two different things. And I can't heal this on my own - I can't do what NEEDS to be done to even begin the process.... Which is why since late August,  since Eric hopped aboard Britt's denial and relational bullying train,  I have been forcing myself to acknowledge as truth my defeat and the necessity of me leaving since nobody with the capacity to heal this exhibits any DESIRE to heal it or to even acknowledge there's things here that require healing and requiring removing poisonous mistakes of the past to render them harmless to make future poisons. Being a healer means knowing what must be done to heal souls and their interactions - it isn't the same as having the tools or role in the relationship needed to do it. And that's a humbling hard place to be in when it's your nature to wish to heal pain and suffering as well as to fight what is ethically wrong - and you've spent millenia studying both and honing your abilities.  There will still always be times that healing requires the actions and free will choices of other people or it can't be done.  And this is one of them.