O alright.  That's not how karmic bonds work,  I know I know I know.  You don't just get to DECIDE "okay I'm done now,  by-bye" - they stay til your karma (good and bad)  is worked out and both sides are ready to release each other.  I'm just very tired of expecting something good and only receiving hurt from him,  especially any time any of the girls is in any way involved in it.... Even when they mean well,  the poisons unhealed in them make it backfire in his face as soon as Liz,  Britt,  or Jessie have even the smallest influence on anything to do with it.....

And I don't see the point in the contingent precogs, it makes me angey I'm even having them as if I should do somerhing or care about their fates after everything they've done?  Why should it be expected of me to care about them any longer when their feelings about intentionally causing me hurt and pain have been made so clear by them and their choices?!  And what's even the point of me knowing when there's nothing I can do or say to shift the fate lines.  Unless it's to warn me of the consequences if I choose Dave,  but that's stupid and I stand by my decision since my birthday (turns out that insta lives can still stay up longer,  it's apparently same as it's always been unless you manually change it - you can thank the rideordiehard account for correcting me on that;  means Britt intentionally made the songwriters circle not stay and both her and Liz intentionally made their most recent indefemmedents not stay) that I'm going to internally give up on Eric ever even attempting to make things right and if Dave asks I'll say yes. The situation with Eric is beyond a mess and none of them are doing anything to fix what they've broken so it's only getting worse. I'm ready to be done with the lot of them as a result.  I genuinely don't see anything there worth me holding onto any longer.  If I'm wrong correct me,  but I don't see it any longer. What I see is Liz and Britt went out of their way to insult me and attack me over the country music causing me pain until Liz chose to block me from her personal account in May '18, Britt from her personal account in Oct '18 and someone from the official band account less than 12 hours after Britt did on her personal one.  And since then,  I've seen Liz,  Britt,  and recently Eric starting in August INTENTIONALLY use Instagram live for content available nowhere else in full knowledge that it was ostracism and the band account had been used to block and bully fans who didn't like the shift to country radio and country music.

I don't know what there is then to hold onto other than a pattern of bullying and cruelty from the girls and Eric following the lead of the bullying of the girls. I can't even listen to their music anymore.  I stopped being able to last October.  I could listen to them for a short while between when they announced they were leaving the label and when the decision was made to have Eric go live on the band insta without ever acknowledging or correcting the blocking - just ignoring the fact I responded to his stated intentions by reminding them it was unfair since someone on the account had blocked fans for not liking the country radio choices.  I haven't been able to listen to any of their songs since Eric made that choice in August.  And I have no desire to listen to ANY songs,  from any of them at this point.  I don't give a fuck about the new albums,  and I don't have any desire to go to the November shows that I already bought tickets for.  And this is how it is as a result of their choices,  their actions,  and whoever tells them they were right in their behavior is also at fault....

And I want nothing to do with anyone who acts with intentional cruelty or condones it or will take part in it if their friends try to convince them it's okay.  I simply have no desire for shitty humans in my life,  and engaging in intentional cruelty or the excusing of it makes you a shitty human.  For as long as you remain guilty of it,  continue in the behaviors,  and have done nothing to show any remorse or sense of wrongdoing for the evils you did.

So I don't want any precogs involving any of them.  I don't want to know.  Let their life paths be what they are.  I want nothing to do with Liz,  Britt,  Jessie,  or Eric at this point - they've all spent too long showing me they're shitty people and doing nothing to atone for their mistakes of the past or give me reason to believe they feel any remorse or have grown/changed. After the Nov dates,  I plan to unfollow them on all socials and not attend any further concerts and not to buy anything further than what I'll receive from my Kickstarter pledge and to let them no longer be any part of my life. Based on their choices and behaviors and the true colors they've shown over the last 2 years, that's what I want at this point. You're welcome to try to convince me to change my mind and make me believe there's something there worth holding onto,  something worth fixing - but you're running out of time and you have a lot to make up for and try to make right and you did yourself no favors at all in Aug/Sept - in fact you made it back as bad as it was all of last winter when I decided to cut Eric out of me since his sister had made it quite clear she didn't want me in her life or his. Maybe even worse,  because this time,  it's about what Eric chose to do and who he chose to be and who he heeded to rationalize him taking part in their bullying.