Here are some random ADHD things I wanted to say in the last post but moved to a separate post as post scripts because I felt that what I was explaining about the way I think and the reason I welcome being told I've got faulty/bad premises early beforehand to minimize the potential damage that running on assumptions and bad premises  can do.  That was important so I removed the distracting random things to put them here. But they're from around the same time last night as the other post. 

I'm going back to reading Tarzan books now.  I got stuck in the 6th book of short stories due some casually racist and misogynistic statements thrown in that angered me made me question why I was reading it.  Like many white male writers of the late 1800s and early 1900s, Burroughs has a lot of casual racism and objectifying women, but sometimes he's much more egalitarian and progressive than others of his era. His writing is a mixed bag of it, but he definitely has a strong vein of caste/superiority in it.  But there's enough casual racism in Burroughs I would not suggest it for children or the easily manipulated by their own latent racist preconceptions.  This 7th book is set in WWI and is about him killing Germans following the destruction of his estate, slaughter of his tribe who serve him, and presumed murder of his wife.  Thus far it's mostly a lot of anti-German propaganda piece of how Tarzan helped win the war in the jungles of Africa.  

Anyway,  back to tea and Tarzan books. My parents flight gets in tomorrow at 3 or 3:30 so then I'll be back home again.

Random postscripts from yesterday:

P. S.  Today was a Jack-o-lanterns in May socks day. Felt like All Hallows weather/energy given it was 84 on Weds then the last couple days have been rainy with highs in the 50s and lows in the 40s and a frost warning here last night,  a freeze warning 35mins north of us, and half inch of snow in Osseo.  So I put on Halloween socks today, In case you were wondering what secret self I his from the wirld under the floral lined black combat boots. 

P. P. S.  Was sending snarky selfies to the 16 year old this evening and no matter what I did,  I was backlit haloed even though outside that window all was shadows and the sun was behind a cloud on the opposite side of the house....  

This is normal for me,  it's why I don't share many selfies or TikToks or anything like that - often no matter what I do to reposition me and change the camera angles,  light just bends in wyrd ways around my auric field so some part of me is always glowing.... Most often it's around my hair or my skin,  but if I know I'm being photographed and/or for group pictures and such I sort of tighten in my energy bubble and then condense it in one particular area (often a part if me hidden under clothes) to try to minimize the number of retakes of group pictures.... And whenever I try to move my energies to reduce the random light bending through my auric field halo/luminescing effects,  it somehow always makes me look extra Elvish fae... 

See? Damn nuisance in the modern world....  And it takes me so much energy and effort to get the auric field luminosity that dimmed.... If you tend to think of me as surrounded by light or warmth,  I am except when I'm sick or injured or beyond exhausted. But it's an auric spirit thing not everyone can see visually as light/warmth (though many with even latent clairvoyant/clairsentient gifts can sense it) but always shows up in pictures/videos of me.  Been that way my whole life...  I don't know how to turn it off, just how to pull it in or move it.  It also tends to be more intense when I fritz out electronics/cell signal/wifi/bluetooth/speakers the most. So it's definitely an auric field energy manipulation thing. 

I can't zoom or skype or face time to save my life with it, even if I'm in a group of people I'm either haloed or a shaft of light no matter what angles of me,  camera, and light source(s) I try.  I've given up teleconferencing of all sorts except with people whose shit it doesn't freak out. 

I think we might be onto something when we were talking spirit animals in Detroit and I said,  "I don't know what mine is.  Everybody picks a bird,  but everyone picks a different bird for me.  The most common are swan, raven,  hummingbird, hawk or eagle, owl. And I do have connections to all these birds and they do all seem accurate for certain facets of me,  but none are all of me.  Maybe my spirit animal isn't a real bird at all.  Maybe it's a mythical bird.  Like a phoenix or a Thunderbird..." Debbie: "Well do your tears heal or do you control the rains?" Me: "It takes a lot to make me cry.  But both." Crissy: "She's just magical as fuck." Erin: "I still think peregrine falcon.  Or a wise owl. Only now I see the crow.  And the swan.  Damnit Dani! I was 98% certainly I solved it when I came up with peregrine falcon!" Dani: "Don't be upset,  I've never found one that fits exactly either.  I'm probably a mythical bird the modern world has forgotten." Debbie: "I still think phoenix is the best fit for you."

P. P. P. S.  In today's random synchronicity nudges from the Universe, when I go to send insta pics/vids to friends via dm,  the 6 people I most frequently send cute animals to are at the very top,  then the 7th person is Eric, the 8th is Mike,  the 9th is Grant and THEN start the people I only intermittently dm with.  The weirdest part?  I haven't followed any of them on my Instagram account or looked any of them up since I lost my temper with a tweet of Eric's about watching him live on the band's account back like 5 or 6 months ago.  This afternoon when I meant to share to Erin who I rarely dm on insta, I accidentally clicked send to Eric's account a dm of the video from Detroit Zoo of how much of a handful Astra is to Suka. And while I don't think he'd have minded a video of a polar bear cub play attacking her mama bear,  it would have been a weird af thing to get from someone you don't follow and doesn't follow you and the last dm is from like a year and a half ago about why going live on the band's account is NOT inclusive of all fans and Kickstarter backers to celebrate the Kickstarter ending as the tweets/fb posts/emails phrased it in inviting people to join that insta live.  I immediately unclicked send next to his profile and scrolled down to find Erin's but I was so mortified at how weird and random embarrassing that was that his account appeared 7th in my list so I dmed him a random ass video of polar bears with no comment or context that I threw my phone across the couch and swore off social media and the interwebz until the texts with Mikaela and Sarah at 5ish.

Not gonna lie,  a part of me is curious what he'd have done if I hadn't unsent that video dm, and so whenever he checked his dms frim people he doesn't follow and saw he had gotten the random polar bear video of Astra play pouncing on her mama Suka that instagram wanted him to have from me.  😂 Not curious enough to message him or search out his profile though.  I'll just be more cautious now while Instagram decides he's the 7th most likely person I want to dm cute animal posts. 

I have no idea why Eric's that high in the list given I don't follow him and haven't for many months now.  It's random af.  But it means yesterday afternoon I did accidentally dm him a video from Detroit Zoo of polar bears before I immediately unsent it.