My clicky right shoulder that subluxates more easily is extra clicky today. No idea why. 

Old old repetitive stress injury due to training excitable young puppies on walks. That shoulder has clicked since I was a kid. I mean, the subluxation in both shoulders is because I'm hyper flexible and so it's easy to pop my shoulder and elbow joints out of their sockets and back into place again. I have to be extra careful in hot yoga not to push certain poses to the point I feel them or I will end up popping my shoulders out partially dislocating them. Which makes it less relaxing than it ought to be when I have to constantly question, "Would this dislocate the arm of a normal person?" It's just worse in the right shoulder due to dogs yanking it slightly out of the socket while walking them. There's no pain when my shoulder clicks, just makes noise (which it does click all through the joint every time I roll it forward. Definitely have had exes who were incredibly concerned about it because it clicks in the subtle movement relaxing into sleep if I lay on my stomach or side. Because gravity and relaxing muscles means the shoulder moves forward.) it doesn't hurt me when my shoulders click moving them and it doesn't affect my range of motion at all, just makes a lot of noise sometimes. And by sometimes, I mean literally every time I roll my right shoulder forward or shrug it up/forward. And with a subluxating joint, they really only recommend any type of surgery if there's pain or reduced range of motion. Which isn't an issue for me. It's just noisy when moved certain ways. If it's slightly out of the socket too long I can get pain in it, but that's actually typically bursitis in the shoulder blade getting pulled by it too much, not the shoulder itself. About the only thing to help with it is shoulder exercises to strengthen/stabilize the joint which don't stop it clicking, just help keep it from minor dislocation while I'm doing things like long distance driving. (This is when it tends most to subluxate and thus when I am most likely to get pain in the shoulder blade. Weirdly, wearing a racer back bra or the straps crossed across my back on a convertible bra helps hold it in place better while long driving. Wearing a strapless bra or no bra at all is the worst as far as the subluxation goes.)

Completely unrelated. But I'm pretty certain I'm developing a coconut allergy..... I've had intermittent reactions to topical use of coconut so I don't use coconut oil on my hair and skin. It's not as intense as my reactions to palm oil, but it's definitely an intermittent break out in red patches itchy skin issue. It started with my natural deodorant and if you've ever tried having migraines from synthetic perfumes, breaking out from petroleum derived products on your skin (including polyester/acrylic fibers) and getting hives from palm oil derivatives, then you realize just how tricky hair/skin products already were for me. Once you add in contact dermatitis and intermittent hives from coconut oil, it's near fucking impossible unless I'm making my own.... Basically, my skin loves olive oil and beeswax and Castile/glycerin soap and herbs/essential oils for scent and that's pretty much it, lol. Luckily, I discovered Pit Liquor which is an alcohol and arrowroot and essential oils deodorant. I've only been using it since the fall though so I have no idea if it will be effective enough for summer..... If I weren't a hippie witch raised by hippies, my skin sensitivity and allergies and migraines would force the issue, lol.

But for the last month or two, in addition to contact dermatitis from coconut oil, I've been getting headaches and nausea and occasionally itchy throat/ears every time I make tea with coconut pieces in it and I've been really intensely stomachache and nauseous after putting coconut milk in curries (but not when I make curry without coconut milk) - which really sucks because some of my favorite teas have coconut slivers in it and curry is one of my go to "I don't know what I want to eat" solutions. Also, Tom Kha soup.... I adore it and haven't let me order it since this coconut issue started. I really really miss Tom Kha soup... I can still have Tom Yum soup, which is delicious but not the same thing.... 

It's not yet as bad as my pork allergy (instant vomiting and small amounts like gelatin cause intense stomachache with internal bleeding, break out in hives from touching pork or adhesive with pork products in it, include off brand bandages) or my Cascade/Citra hops allergy (closing of bronchial and itchy throat/ears - this one is pretty scary as it affects my breathing which means it could turn anaphylactic if I'm not careful, but also I miss good grapefruit-y IPA beers; even though I've always preferred dark malt bomb beers, a good IPA is just nicely refreshing.). But also, both those allergies got worse over time and continued exposure..... 

Also, in completely unrelated news, I made a coconut milk korma curry for dinner last night and while it was fucking delicious, my stomach has been displeased for like 6 hours now curled up in bed in fetal position. But damnit it's such a dang tasty curry I made!!!! 

Pork allergy wasn't so bad, I never ate much of it anyway, until it got so severe that cross contamination has been an issue. But when in doubt, I just order vegetarian/vegan options. The much more recent hops allergy is annoying and sucks because IPA beers still smell good other than the throat itching and sometimes not breathing thing when i smell them or even worse when I drink them - but also very easy to avoid if I stick to dark European style beers since it's generally only a couple varieties of hops or dry hopped beers. But giving up coconut milk curries and Tom Ka soup?! Do you have any idea how much of my diet is composed of Thai and Indian cuisine?!?! (Indian food, like Middle Eastern and a lot of Mediterranean, is always a safe pork free option for me. And both Thai and Japanese are very cautious and good if you order vegetarian or sushi due to stricter forma of Buddhism. This is a large part of why these are all among my comfort foods, I don't have past associations of getting sick after eating them.) I was really hoping that avoiding coconut oil in skin care products would be enough to still allow me coconut milk cooked in things.... 

*sigh* I am very displeased by this turn of events.... Still a bit in denial. But I won't buy any more unsweetened coconut milk for making curries once I use up what's still in my pantry..... I actually do prefer using pomegranate juice or orange juice or citrus in my curries if I have them on hand. It's just that coconut milk is shelf stable in the pantry unlike fruit juice so it's easier to stock in bulk, y'know? But I've been having intermittent issues after having coconut in teas and curries since mid-January now.. So of course I ordered Caramel Delites in my Girl Scout cookie order.... because i was dumb and didn't think about it.

So what I'm saying is that I'm laying curled up in bed with a right shoulder that clicks every time I move it even slightly and I'm still mildly nauseous after putting coconut milk in my korma curry even though I should know better. I should go make me some ginger tea see if that helps. (To help with the nausea from the coconut allergy, not the clicking shoulder subluxation, lol. The shoulder always clicks when I roll it forward.) Definitely not feeling particularly desirable or lovable at the moment, but the animals are snuggly cuddly sweet, so at least there's that going for me tonight.