Curious. 

So,  the last few hours (despite my post of honesty about me having spent these recent couple weeks refusing to have expectations since it would only lead to disappointment and from disappointment to hurt) there's been a very intense rush of heady love down the bond.  Nothing else,  just a very strong pure love and a reassurance that things will come right. Extremely intense.  Possibly powerful enough to break through into shared dream state if I'd been sleeping. I assumed that wasn't possible right now with the limits on the bond.  But with that much intensity and power of love,  I might be wrong.  Curiously, the love from him got stronger when I looked up at the nearly full moon as I was leaving work and in the car - and that's never happened before. 

But that's not what I wanted to write about.  On my way driving home around 4:30am I had a family group of deer,  6 maybe 7 of them, cross in front of me left to right.  I counted 6, but may have miscounted since even after this week being sunny above freezing every day,  the snow banks are still taller than cars along the roads.  So I could only count the deer that were in the road and those climbing up the snowbank to my right. It was a majestic sight under the gibbous moon (full moon is Saturday) with all the reflective white snow!  Bright as day and so much potent moon Goddess Fée energy and imagery in it! It felt like what I imagine it would feel like to be held within a giant selenite crystal,  energetically,  between the gibbous moon and the snow and the deer and all the love pouring in through my crown and third eye chakra from him this early morning.  

Still feeling the lingering serenity of it,  even though I'm home.  Gonna go shower now,  before people with set work schedules need the hot water in my building. I don't really want to cleanse away this feeling,  but my hair needs a wash and I'd rather do it while there's all the hot water I want,  as long as I'm awake. 

But I wanted to share while the feeling of awe and love and rightness and raw powerful magick still has such a hold on me. 

P. S.  Look up the symbolism of deer.  Grace and unconditional love and connection to the divine feminine. Especially to have seen such a large family group as that!