I have five days left til solstice,  nine days left til the eclipse.  If I'm going to put the bond to sleep at this one which is what I intend to do (as opposed to the companion eclipse in 6 weeks) I'm running out of time to figure out how to do that.....

And as of last night,  he's no longer distracted as he's been, he's intensely focused on strengthening the bond and pouring love into it.  Which will make it harder for me to put it to sleep.  Presuming I figure out how - last time it was done for me by the Seelie. I don't know if they will again or what price they'll ask in exchange this time.

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Also,  last night I had a recurring dream I went to visit Dave in Nashville and he was teasing me while we were in line at a coffeehouse after a really good lunch about how it wasn't so bad.  (anyone who knows me knows that I absolutely LOATHE Nashville and how it changes anyone who moves there stays there for too long. The only city I hate more than Nashville is Las Vegas.  I actually prefer Los Angeles over Nashville, so getting me to even consider visiting Nashville is a huge concession from me.  Genuinely cannot stand the city or anything about it....) And then Eric and Brittany walked in behind us and it was really horrible and awkward me having to do introductions.  And Eric asked if we could talk so Brittany suggested we grab a table while she took David to the queue flirting with him since she knew what to get Eric and I told David to make good decisions for me.

After that it played out differently in different iterations. Sometimes very different endings.  But this was the most common.

we didn't really have much to say in the short time we had before they came back,  mostly it was just a lot of awkward.... "So that's Dave." "Yep.  That's Dave." "He seems nice." "He is." "Where did I mess it all up?" "I tried to warn you before I left. But you never listened to me and you never cared if your actions hurt me." "And he does?" "Always.  On both counts." "Will you ever come back?" "For what?  I'm still blocked on the band account, and all over an honest truth she didn't want you to know. And it's turned out just as I warned it would if the bullying was never addressed."

And it was all just really horrible and awkward, especially when it came up that Dave and I were seeing each other but as long as he wasn't willing to make it official,  I insisted on it being an open relationship. And then Brittany started hitting on Dave even more while Eric and I were just awkward af didn't know what to say to each other in this situation with him hurt and jealous of Dave and me just flustered wondering how this could be happening....

But I do remember that at the end of it, after they left,  David asked me,  "So that's Eric?" and I said,  "Yep.  That's Eric." and Dave nodded, put his arm around me and told me,  "I've decided it's time we make us official.  I've been thinking it for a while,  but today made me realize I'm done leaving our relationship open." And I snuggled into him said,  "Good.  But I'm still not moving to Nashville.  Ever.  I really fucking hate this city."

First time I've had a dream like that.  With both of them in it.

(I actually have considered the likelihood of Dave and Eric crossing paths.  Especially now Dave and Diana are broken up and he's back living with Scott (Mulvahill) like he was when he first moved to Nashville. And he's known Scott for years,  but it's only in the last 6 months that Delta Rae had Scott open part of their tour and it became real to me how easily they could cross paths now. I was quite relieved that Dave was doing a livestream with a friend the night of the Delta Rae show at Exit/In...meant Scott couldn't convince him to go if Scott went  I want to be clear with myself so I can be clear with them both before those wires get crossed.... )