Naw,  I'll give the full 7 days. It's not like it'll be that long.  Plus I like the symbolic resonance and closure of giving a full year to right what was done.  And.  Honest.  I haven't the time to let go of connections completely and thoroughly.  And it ain't worth doing it if it ain't done thoroughly - the bleed through on the bond of our pain will just pull us back to each other as neither of us can handle when we know the other is hurting,  when we feel that hurt echoing inside us.  And the truth is,  we're both gonna hurt like fuck,  at any point we try to sever or even minimize the bond between us.  That's just fact.

But there are no terms of what has been demanded over the last year (last two years really)  that aren't abusive,  emotionally and mentally abusive, because they ask me to stay when you're willing and choose to willingly be party to behaviors that you KNOW cause me pain and are intended to do so. And those are not terms I'll stay for.  They are not something I'll be party to.

And that is the crux of where he fucked up, fucked up enough that it's now time to cut him off from any future to me.  Because he allowed peer pressure and manipulation to convince him that willfully and knowingly causing me hurt would have no consequences and could somehow EVER be justifiable or rationalized.  And that is how Eric has failed and failed and failed and is STILL failing.  And it's the reason he will lose me.  The only way for him to ever lose me is by his choices and his choices alone.  And he has continually made and supported the choices that he doesn't respect or care about me as a person.... And that's just the reality of his choices - no matter who he listened to along the way to rationalize it,  those were his choices.

He doesn't need to remind me why I love him and should love him - he's got that in the bag.  What he has to do is convince me he gives a damn whatsoever about me or my hurts or the consequences of his actions toward me. And that he has failed at so completely that I have no idea what he'd have to do to alter this fate that his actions and choices have manifested....