Yes, I do get quiet and distant and not well seated in the present when I'm struggling with coming to terms with difficult immutable precogs and the emotions of them and not being able to talk to anyone about it because nobody else is experiencing it or living it yet. It means by the time others are dealing with it, I've had months/years of processing and grieving it so I'm better able to cope with it when it arrives. But it does make me quiet and distant while I'm processing the difficult truths and can't talk about it. It's the same as any  heavy emotions I can't yet put into words and one of the few tells I have if I'm not talking about precogs I'm grappling with.

And, it does sometimes rob me of the joys of not knowing -- think about the enthusiasm and wild excess of hopium so many people had after Biden stepped back to let Kamala try as the nominee under the pressure of so many people saying he wasn't capable of doing it. I never had that because the moment he announced it and the DNC chose her for nominee, I'd already had the precog flash of me sitting in my car at 2:30am hearing the news on the radio of the projected win and why. I fought against that precog and did what I could but I was fighting from duty not hope or joy in the fight because I knew before it started that I was on the side of the fight that would lose even if it was the right side. But it also means there was no shock for me in the defeat, I didn't have that hope dashed down to despair that so many I know and love felt and are still feeling -- I knew throughout that it was a lost fight but still needing to be fought til the bitter end. You're more able to support those you care about through their processing and to have actions/plans for what to do from once you get there when you already processed knew what was coming. 

I have no choice about it with my precog gifts of prophecy, but I tend not to share the hard things I see unless I can somehow save someone from being caught in the middle of the crossfire by telling them if I can get them to listen to me. but most of the time I don't tell anyone. Which is harder on myself than I need to be but also it's a lot to ask anyone else to carry when they can't change it and don't have to bear it yet. Often, even when it's a hard truth painful thing, when the event happens and others catch up to the knowledge I have been carrying it will feel like a relief to me that now we are all on the same page of knowledge.

But I do tend to get quiet (in person as well as not writing here) in the gap between when I've seen something difficult in an immutable precog over the horizon of time but have not yet processed it and nobody with whom to talk about it and just have to wait for time to catch everyone else up to me.

That's not about you. And I suppose if anyone I trusted knew to ask and insisted they wanted to know what it was I would tell them -- but thus far it's generally been truths I carry until time catches up to the events occurring.

How was this something I could precog given I can't precog until the important free will choice locks into place the fateline? Well. the free will choice here wasn't the voters. It was when they chose a woman again -- there are too many in the USA who do not have it in them to see a woman in charge, who don't think she would do a good job. It's the Elizabeth Warren and Hillary Clinton problem -- there are too many (male and female) who hate admitting the smartest most qualified person in the room is a woman. And NOBODY who would ever even consider voting for a trump would ever be willing to admit that ANY woman (regardless race) could ever be the smartest most qualified in the room. Everyone comparing Kamala's numbers against Biden's are doing the wrong comparison -- you need to compare them against Hillary's.... The only Democrat who could have beaten trump and gotten any of his followers to change their votes was a man (who could have a woman as his subordinate vp, but not the reverse in most American forms of Christianity, especially Evangelical forms.)  The choice not to put forward ANY man as the presidential candidate was the free will choice that made locked in as the only fatelines that could happen EVEN GIVEN how much was at stake. The deeply ingrained "Eve was made from the rib of Adam and so women are meant to be subordinate to men" Christian fundamentalist indoctrination from a young age is stronger than EVERYTHING that is now lost by handing over so much power and control to the theocratic crazies of  modern cult of trump Republicanism.

Do I LIKE those truths? No. But I sure as hell ain't willing to lie to myself or anyone else about it no matter how certain I am in the truth that the smartest most qualified person in the room is about how educated and experienced and ethical the individual is rather than any identities of the body they happened to be born into.

Look, I'm an ancient soul and not a Christian and never will be -- not just in this life but in any life even the ones I was born into Christian families in Christian societies. But when you are among those with a target on your back when the Christian misogynists turn on you, you don't have the luxury of lying to yourself about the nature of those forms of patriarchal indoctrination. If you're born Jew or gypsy or witch, let alone all three, you don't have to agree with them or their reasons or even understand them in any sort of relatable way -- but you never can lie to yourself about the naked truth of them behind the facades. Because to lie to yourself about the naked truth is to put yourself and all you cherish in danger.

So it doesn't surprise ME that the moment that the powers that be in the DNC chose Harris as the nominee, before it was announced, I got the immutable precogs of how the election would turn out. I didn't like it, but it didn't surprise me. 

That said, I still have had no precogs of ANYONE being sworn in in January, not even the current elect or his vp if something happened to him between now and then... And THAT blank space in my precogs, both immutable precogs AND contingent precogs that could still happen unless action is taken to alter the course, DOES surprise me. Because there's no reason for that to be blanked out from my gift of prophecy.... It's not me trying to peek and cheat a happy surprise, it's me trying to see a planned expected event and I should be able to see it if I TRY to see it unless it just isn't going to happen somehow.... And that is something I find very very interesting.... Right now, I still can't see ANYONE getting sworn in in January, not even as a possible fateline, no more than I could over the summer or all autumn long....

And that is a fascinatingly curious inexplicable blank space in my precogs and ability to see along the fatelines.... I also haven't seen a how/why of that opaqueness in my gifts -- so I can't explain it only be honest that it's currently a blind spot I can't see. Particularly since my only known blind spots are before free will choices that have not yet been made that determine which fatelines become real AND my personally requested blind spots put on my gifts of 1) happy surprises and 2) sporting events. This clearly isn't a sporting event -- which means free will choices yet to be made OR happy surprise. And I have no idea which one it could be or the how/why of it....