So Waffles has a vet appointment at 10 to get her Lyme vaccine booster (This wasn't a necessary vaccine they gave her out west, but I added it for here because there are ticks any/everywhere there are deer or rabbits or robins or squirrels. And that's literally everywhere. I have known enough humans and dogs who have gotten Lyme Disease and how awful it is and sometimes the spirochetes will go dormant in spinal fluid so you're never really cured of it even after the heavy antibiotic regimens. So I'd never want an animal to go through it unnecessarily and it's one of three major tick borne viruses in the area; when the human vaccine for it comes out after proper testing, I intend to get it for myself. Until then, I just make sure my dog has the Lyme vaccine and feed and care for the opossums because they are one of very few species who eat ticks. If you live anywhere between the Rocky Mountains and Atlantic Ocean, especially if it's heavily wooded or you garden/farm a lot, best thing you can do is befriend and provide shelter for opossums.)

Anyway, her appointment is at 10 and it's a nice morning so we'll just walk the couple blocks over to the vet. But now I have a very awkward amount of time -- not enough to do a proper walk first but waaaaay too much to head out now and just the wrong amount for my ADHD to let me get lost in the pages of a book or to write because I'll miss the dang appointment due to time blindness... 

Anyway. This was in the email from Cosmic Owl/Louise Edington's substack and it made me laugh. Glad to know the purging old wounds to start a new story leading into today's Scorpio new moon and then the upcoming astrology support all my recent shadow work. 

"The watery trine from the Moon and Ceres to Neptune brings the potential for a powerful cleansing of emotions around grief and loss. I have mentioned many times that old trauma memories have been emerging in the time leading to the New Moon and now it’s time to release and purge. Surrender, trust, and acceptance are the things to lean into as this powerful water energy washes through.

Later this evening, the Moon moves into fiery Sagittarius and we gain some optimistic drive. However, Luna immediately opposes Sedna in Gemini and squares Saturn in Pisces which gives a reality check but also a strong drive to change and to create your dreams.

Early tomorrow, Venus in their home, Libra, squares Pandora’s box Centaur, Pholus in Capricorn and approaches tomorrow’s square to Vesta in Cancer. This brings a determination to bring balance and justice around revelations that Pholus is, and has been, revealing.

And early Moon conjunction with Mercury at 6˚ Sagittarius focuses the mind and emotions. The Sabian symbol for this is “Cupid knocking on the door” as if to say, ‘hello, remember that love is always the answer’ bringing a wave of optimism and abundant hope. Tune into this lovely conjunction early tomorrow and feel the optimism and visionary boost. So very welcome amongst the intensity of the Scorpio energy."

I was entertained. That's way deeper than my astrology curious self knew about what is written in the stars and their movements right now -- but it does echo perfectly what I've been doing for internal work and what I feel is coming hope for.

Okays I think I'm getting close enough I've frittered enough time here that I can get the dog and me ready to walk over to the vet and be obnoxiously early but also Waffles can be cautious and has a history before she was my dog of reactivity and fear at the vet so may be difficult with new people and this is just a vet tech take her back so different than her actual appointment where I was in the room to introduce her to Erin and calm her before handing her to Erin to take her back for the vaccines portion of her annual visit. On verra. We shall all find out together, lol.

Then a proper walk unless Waffles is stressed by the vet visit just wants to go home. And then a toss up whether I make breakfast/coffee before I get some writing done or go to bed. I didn't sleep at all last night. Whoops. Worked until the wee hours then got home and somebody else had let their dog shit in the garage and didn't pick it up so there was a big literal pile of dog shit sitting in my stall in the garage and I couldn't park without running over it. So then I was furious, parked blocking the whole garage because what else could I do? I took Waffles directly upstairs since no way to know if there was worms or other diseases from the irresponsible dog owner then went back downstairs to bag and disinfect and take outside to throw out the fucking dog shit then parked my car, then came back upstairs to write a scathing note left on the mailboxes then as my temper cooled I decided it was too much and cussed a lot so I revised wrote a not quite so vitriolic note to replace it on the mailboxes. O and since it was 3am and I was exhausted just wanted to sleep before I got so angry, I intentionally slammed every fucking door loud as I could along the way to wake up the whole damn building and set all the other dogs barking their heads off at 3am because it was just fucking rude and juvenile and if I had to clean up someone else's shit at 3am, I was making that EVERYONE'S problem in the whole fucking building to start off their Monday. If it ever happens again, I'll intentionally "accidentally" set off my car alarm as well while dealing with it.... 

This isn't the first time that the same person *cough* the girl who owns the corgi Brady downstairs *cough* has taken their dog to the shared garage to poop rather than taking him outside and then NOT cleaned it up afterward -- but it's the first time she fucking did it in MY parking stall. And coming home to it at 3am was NOT the best to have to deal with it. So yeah, definitely going to wake up the ENTIRE building and set off her dog MULTIPLE times slamming doors to deal with it AND let everyone know "the reason you were woken up at 3am was because of the woman who doesn't clean up after her own dog leaving it in my parking stall and me coming home to find it at 3am."  This is a repeating problem ever since she got her dog and it was never a problem before she did....B But like I said, this is the first time it was MY problem to clean up which made it HER problem (and everyone else's) at 3am when they should be sleeping but I wouldn't let them..

My temper burns hot and sudden when it flares up but burns itself out quickly and is forgotten by me as soon as it's done -- all the fire in my chart is my Sagittarius stellium but it includes my Mars, Saturn, and Neptune, lol. My Mars and Neptune are actually EXACTLY conjunct, at 28 degrees Sag.... So when I get angry, you and everyone else will know and it's scary and we are LUCKY if I don't go all Carrie on shit until my temper burns itself out so I try REALLY hard to keep it as Zen controlled as possible but anything that is an injustice or intentional cruelty is my biggest trigger and my shortest fuse. Astrologically speaking, despite how clustered everything is in my chart in the fall/winter signs between Libra and Capricorn with my rising, north node and chiron in the late winter into Spring Pisces, Taurus, Gemini.  I actually have a nearly perfect balance across all the elements with 3 in each but a fourth in water making me ever so slightly water inclined though my sun and moon are earth and air to make that less obvious and across types of signs with 4 each for cardinal/fixed and 5 mutable. So technically slightly more water and mutable, the difference of my rising sign, but mostly just extremely balanced across it all even though all clustered in a pendulum chart either side of my midheaven. It's fun to see astrologers react to my chart actually, waaaaay too much power, lol. And ALL my placements deal with justice, karma, truth seeking, rebirth, and bringing the hidden/buried to light. So while I am generally very good at NOT losing my temper and wanting to understand the other side bring harmony not discord, my temper is VERY intense when I can't control it and it's an absolute intense energetic/witchy smackdown that fries electronics and can break glass, even if I keep my tongue from lashing out l, and it is a hair trigger over acts of injustice/unfairness or intentional cruelty/bullying.  Luckily I don't STAY angry, it's a sudden wildfire out of control that burns itself out when it runs out of fuel and once it burns out it burns out completely -- I don't STAY angry or carry further anger/resentment once I either a) get justice or b) calm down enough to be logical/practical find a way to solve what upset me. 

But it's always injustice/unfairness or cruelty/bullying that will set me off hair trigger emotional anger response before the Libra and Capricorn placements rein me in to the logical/practical best to do in the situation. And letting your dog shit INSIDE a shared garage, in someone else's stall, and just leaving it is fucking unfair and rude and intentional malice leaving it for someone else to clean up....and it was 3am when I discovered their literal pile of crap left for someone else to clean up so I was tired and when I get overtired or hangry, just like anyone, my control on my temper is not as good as I aspire to be. Also luckily, me blowing my fuse didn't blow any literal fuses this time, my energy blast of anger at 3am only fried two of the lightbulbs in the garage when I first saw it and had to deal with the pile of someone else's dog shit at 3am.... 

So anyway, after dealing with all that mess and waiting for my temper to burn itself out and making up a cuppa tea (I may have cracked the glass on the heating element of my stovetop trying to make tea before I was calm -- I'm not generally supposed to cook, go near electronics, touch glass or anything electrical, try to flip switches or turn on cars or anything like that if I'm even mildly annoyed -- I can touch the ground or chairs or wood or non-conductive metals or plastic but nothing that conducts energy until I am controlling my energy release.) So after leaving the second note (with no cussing) and drinking my tea, my anger was released so then it was just calming down the anger released adrenaline/cortisol/etc in my bloodstream by reading and cuddling cute fur baby familiars. And then it was waiting for sunrise because I can't sleep across the hours of gloaming, sunrises/sunset. So by the time I was starting to think bed again I was going to get just the wrong amount of sleep to wake up groggy/overtired or not wake up at all sleep through the alarms and the doggo's appointment. 

I should probably plan to sleep for at least a little while when I get home from our post vet visit walkies....  Even though it's a beautiful day, I will be a better version of me after SOME sleep than if I try to just power through go to work and deal with the humans at work on absolutely NO sleep.