So I just realized something. 

I finally caught up on my emails and realized that I still needed to listen to and download Eric's song from while I was out visiting my sister's family. I had skimmed the story behind it but not listened to the song or read the lyrics too closely. And my brain just sort of filed it away as being about the tension of ambition/fame which is something I've experienced in past lives but isn't something that motivates me much this life after my surfeit of fame/money last life forced me to see through it for the hollowness it truly is.  I didn't even realize until just now tonight that he was literally writing about training a dog as his metaphor WHILE I was in the midst of training a dog. 

Which would be an odd synchronicity if the bond didn't often manifest as mirroring in each others lives. that sort of bond always does. I can't help it and he can't help it -- our lives just HAPPEN in synchronistic ways that mirror each other and we will always be experiencing the same sort of things at the same time and making choices that mirror the other EVEN WHEN we don't actually touch our lives together or communicate in the 3d everyday. For all I know, he was visiting his nephews (who are within a year or so of Jack and Monroe) at the same time I was at my sister and brother-in-law's visiting with my nephew and nieces. I have no idea if he was with them, but with all the echoes down the bond of my fun hanging out with my own neblings it wouldn't surprise me at all if he had a sudden urge he had to go spend time with his nephews. The bond works like that, we mirror each other without even intending to do so or having any way to know/verify that we're doing it.

But this one is  so obvious it's definitely one of those "wait, how did you NOT see this obvious serendipity between his songwriting and what you're doing in your quotidian" questions about my willful blindness at times to what is right in front of my face.....

I probably wouldn't have been so blind about how obvious this synchronicity if I hadn't been so willfully stubbornly fixated on needing to find a way to not repeat the past lives patterns of him choosing to be with someone else in his physical life while still clinging to the bond and making both our lives completely miserable and unsatisfied as a result of him marrying other people while still clinging to the bond.... I refuse to repeat that old pattern, and my not allowing anything with the lamprey's energy twined around/through it to reach me isn't a judgement about her per se (other than I don't like any energy suckers of any sort, no matter what sort of false healer narrative they hide it under) but because I refuse to let me take part in repeating those same patterns if he refuses to learn his karmic lessons.  I can't make choices for him, only he can make his own choices, but I can refuse to knowingly aid and abet repeating toxic cycles and karmic patterns which is what I'm doing by not allowing anything with the lamprey's energy twining through it to reach me -- so long as his energy is intertwined through his current girlfriend's, faucet is off for everything derived from our bond except what mirrors and bleeds through in our subconscious selves. Because, even though he can't directly reach me in dream space or via the bond the normal way because I'm blocking out the lamprey's energy mixed into anyone/anything from reaching me, the strong emotions and some overlay images will still bleed through. Even with no communication in a proper sense. 

A bond like this will mirror each other always and strong emotions bleed through any sort of blocks, regardless any karmic choices or karmic third parties either of us pull into our mess we've made across recent lifetimes of our bond. We can choose a path to healing each other and growth or we can choose a path to try to ignore/deny it, but the bond IS all the same and we will mirror each other and feel the echoes of the other as our own desires and muse speaking no matter which path we choose.

But yeah. I should have realized and acknowledged the synchronicity. And I did finally listen to the song and read the lyrics of it tonight and I had reactions/opinions. I haven't yet wordsed my reactions to the song beyond my first reaction of how obviously it sounds of a Bob Dylan song with a Billy Joel piano lick (which I can listen to Billy Joel again without uncontrollably crying for missing my sweet Audrey Pupburn which is how it's been the last five months since she died and I am using Billy Joel as Waffles' babysitter whenever I have to leave her kenneled for me to run errands, same as Billy Joel was Audrey's babysitter whenever I was gone) followed strongly by my realization about the mirroring between his song's extended metaphor and what I'm currently filling my life with doing. My third reaction was, "Wait, he hasn't shared any more songs since the 5th?!?! I hope he's okay! O he'd better be okay, he has to be okay! Because I'd know if anything were seriously wrong with him. It would be echoing alarm bells through my silence if any serious harm was menacing him. He probably just got busy distracted with life or lacked his muse to bring his songs to the surface for him these last 3 weeks or so. He's going to be very pressed to meet his goal he set himself if he can't focus and find his muse soon..."

Also, Audrey is DEFINITELY spirit guide training Waffles in her time between lives -- the girl has picked up so many of Audrey's quirks and habits. It's actually really adorable and everybody at mcw is commenting on how similar she is to Audrey in so many ways and none of these things are habits she ever showed before she became officially my dog this month.

And Waffles is doing exceptionally model behavior well at every aspect of integrating and making me happy and not being super anxiety bark-monster pup like she was before I was working with her. So far, the only person who doesn't love her is Spock, and honestly part of it is he's still mourning Audrey's absence and he would be upset with ANY dog that I brought home despite being so lonesome for Audrey's absence that he spent most of his time since end of January wandering around meowling kitten crying while looking for her.... Spock is doing better than most cats with a new dog, but he's still obviously stressed and hisses at Waffles whenever she gets closer than a foot from him except the couple times they were willing to go nose to nose until the dog wagging her tail scared Spock back into hissing backing away. Still, I picked up Feliway diffuser tonight (as well as a new ID tag for Waffles with my phone number and my work phone number so if she ever stops being by my side every moment except when I have errands or concerts, anyone who finds her won't call my sister and brother-in-law; still need to transfer her microchip to me; her new tag is reflective neon green for safety's sake because she's mostly dark colored and also it perfectly matches the greens in collar, harness, leash, and all her tennis balls which are life.) Athe Feliway diffuser is in the hopes that it can help smooth over the acceptance of the long weekend when Waffles and I will be home more rather than at work in the afternoons/evenings and then kenneling Waffles for bed as soon as we get home. (she's a happy snuggle pup and was a model snuggle pup bed warmer at the hotels on the roadtrip home, but until she and the cat are getting along well enough I can trust behaviors while I sleep, Waffles will need to be kenneled while I sleep. So far she's been okay with this and actually goes in her kennel puts herself to bed without me if I stay up reading later than she wants to be up, lol.)