IT'S SNOWING!!!! IT'S SNOWING!!!! ITS SNOWING!!!! 

O BUT I'M SO HAPPY I HAVE THE SHINIEST BRIGHTEST SNOW GIDDIES!!!!!!!! MY SOUL FEELS LIKE IT'S MADE OF STARLIGHT AND IT'S ONLY THE MOST INCREDIBLE LUCK THAT MY BODY CAN CONTAIN ALL THE LIGHT AND JOY BEAMS OF MY BEING!!!!!!

IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE UP TO LIKE 4 INCHES OF SNOW BEFORE THE DAY IS OVER!!!!!

I can't wait until the sun comes up and it's light enough for me to take my dog on a snow frolic!!!! Pisces pup loves snow walks even more than rainy day rambles, even in her old age. 

I had some things I realized last night at the end of my dinner date and then further epiphanies/intuitive knowings across the hours I couldn't sleep for my excited anticipation over the snow on today's forecast. I wrote the realizations out, but they are truths that cut like swords and if anyone isn't yet ready to hear or face them than they could cut deeply enough to cause significantly more harm than good. And I only speak the truths that cut to wound when there's a chance those truths spoken could help heal by lancing the infection or if you goad me to either my hot anger or my cold anger. 

Me losing my temper, even flickers of annoyance or irritation, is my hot anger and burns palpably like a wildfire until it burns itself out and it tends to spill over manifest in destroying lightbulbs and frying electronics  and shattering glass/ceramics along their flaws with the sheer power of the energy behind it. You never know what it might destroy while it reigns unchecked, but it is easily put out by throwing water on it if you deal with whatever set me off to lose control of my temper -- and once it burns itself out it's nothing but ashes and things I need to repair after my hot anger broke them. Most of the times you ever see me angry or irked it will be my hot anger you have to deal with.  But I have another kind of anger inside me and that is my cold anger, my righteous anger, and it is usually acts of injustice or intentional cruelty or bullying that bring it out. It's a ruthless emotionless pitiless sort of anger -- when it takes the reins then I let Ma'at speak karmic justice through me as if the person faces the scales of judgement now as they are. I speak all the truths a person is unwilling and scared to face about themselves and I prophecy for them their future fateline if they don't change course to be better. And I say all of it with no emotion, just matter of fact as if it's a truth that everyone sees and knows but nobody has cared about them enough to tell them. I don't recommend goading me to any type of anger, I say truths that people can't yet face and I won't care the damage they cause while I'm angry. But my cold anger, my righteous anger, is by far the scarier of the two -- because the Divine speaks through me and sees you and all the truths you want to bury are presented to you as if everyone knows them as your true identity and then you are "gifted" the knowledge of your fate if you don't choose to be better than the version of you that goaded me to my place of cold righteous anger. 

And the truths I wrote before, they were sword edged deadly truths. The kind I carry and use if angered and cornered. But I'm not even the slightest bit angry about anything right now, I'm full of bright joy and snow giddies and delight in the beauty of the world. It is not my wish to hurt anyone, not even with truths they should know but aren't yet ready to face. Right now I'm extra shiny bright rejoicing in the fresh falling snow and that I am lucky enough to live the moments of today inside the beauty of a snow globe reality. (I swear, if climate change takes real winters from me, I'm moving to Lofoten Norway. That particular place pulls me magnetically and makes my soul sing the way holy sites of ancient Greece make it sing. And every time I see pictures of Lofoten, even though I don't recognize it as anywhere my past selves have lived, it feels like the rightness of coming home deep inside my being. I don't know what a girl has to do to be able to emigrate to Lofoten Norway, but if ever the northern areas of the US and Canada loses its snow to climate change, this woman will figure out how she gets herself to Lofoten. No matter what it takes or what coin she must pay in.... Because my heart is renewed and healed by the beauty of a fresh snowfall, and Lofoten makes my soul sing whenever I see pictures of it.) 

But anyway. I am a being of joyous light over the snow right now and there's no room inside me for even the tiniest spark of anger. So I'll keep those truths in a draft, but I'll burden nobody else with how those swords of hard truths cut deeply.... Not at this time. For only in anger do I wield truth speaking as weapons (and I'm damn good with any blade in my hand, in any life.) And there is no anger in me this morning. There is only bright shining joy and love for the beauty that IS in spite of everything. Right now, everything sparkles for me with luminous incandescent joie de vivre in a world with such a beautiful snowfall blanketing everything!!!

 But I promised my dog I'd (im)patiently wait til after first light for our snow frolic.... 

So for right now, my serenity and soul cleansing is me watching the snow falling in the dark before dawn with candles lit beside me and a cuppa Comfort & Joy tea and George Winston playing and reading Neil Gaiman's Endless Nights. (It's the last I needed for my Sandman collection, it's a collection of graphic novels about each of The Endless, Dream and his siblings. It arrived while I was in Kirkland and I hadn't had the chance to read it yet. But I've been up all night in anticipation of this beautiful wondrously heavy snowfall I was promised for today.) And I will take the dog out once there's enough snow accumulated to make for a fraptious day of snow frolic! 

ALSO!!!! IT'S SNOWING!!!! AND I LIVE IN A SNOW GLOBE!!!! AND GEORGE WINSTON PIANO MUSIC IS SO MAGICAL!!!! BEST SOUNDTRACK FOR LIVING IN A SNOW GLOBE!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT TO GO PLAY AND FROLIC IN THE SPARKLE FLUFF ONCE ENOUGH OF IT ACCUMULATES!!!!!!