Right yeah. I know I know....
That last one was me in a foul temper of a snit over the ways that the Beans and Condo Management Association handled the mess of the Beans creation which they blame on everyone but their own cheapness when they first bought their condo. And me losing my temper not only causes energy fluctuations that can eff up electronics but also tends to make me overly honest, particularly as regards the truths that will break people or they're not yet ready to hear/face -- get me truly furious and I will lay bare everything that you wish hidden can't face about yourself and everything I foresee and precog about your future fatelines unless you change your choices -- and I won't care who sees/hears the truths I say. So be cautious about awakening me to full fury and not just minor annoyance. I never speak lightly when I'm angry and I never speak form a place of passion but just cold remorseless logic as if everyone can see the things I say, and I always speak truths, especially the hidden ones nobody wants to hear. I don't curse people, but I do speak aloud the truths about their past, present, and future they would prefer nobody knows and that they are not able to face....) Trust me, you'll always know when I'm angry. Always. Even if you can't see the lights flicker to warn you my control over my temper is waning.... And today, today I was incredibly angry.... You can only imagine what would have happened if I hadn't already had promises to keep to get my grandmother to her appointments and instead I had walked out onto the wet paint to take my old dog out for her first time of the day because she was aching from the cold rains and then I had an instant migraine while my dogs paws were damaged due to the paint full of deadly carcinogenic chemicals and insufficient warning for us to make our choices accordingly.....
Anyway. We're very lucky that wasn't the fateline and it didn't happen in that way. Angry as I was, as much as I needed to vent, it was a manageable anger and I was able to let it go and reset myself back once more my normal optimistic cheerful self. Thank you for putting up with my venting. I did need it. Sometimes controlling my temper is like trying to stop a herd of runaway horses before they stampeded and destroy something unfixable with all the raw power and force of it -- at least until I get my temper to chill and relax and settle again....
So in that vein, here are some happy things from the latter part of my day after my grandma's appointments, in the order that they came into my life!
1) Overture Hall announced today that the Hadestown tour is coming to Madison in January and it goes on presale tomorrow morning when my maman plans to buy tickets for my parents and me and Crissy (and perhaps Sarah, Mikaela and Karissa, though they were not certain yet tonight) for January 26!!!!! It's not official plans until tickets are purchased, both my sister and I feel strongly that it's only intentions and talk until tickets are bought. But I'm very excited for the plans and potential of Hadestown tickets in January!!!!!!!! *happy dance*
2) Was able to get in on a cancellation to get my bivalent covid vax booster on Sunday (and the flu vax provided they're not using one with pork gelatin as a binding agent, though I'm pretty sure that's not only the nasal spray flu vax that still uses it.) Which means I can get those off my mental to do list before my trip to Seattle to visit my nephew and nieces, especially with how young Elliot is. I am mildly concerned if I were to accidentally carry the current RSV to them, but honestly Monroe is more likely to bring it home from her daycare or ballet than me since it circulates among younglings... but my sister and brother-in-law don't seem concerned about it so I won't be too worried other than my conscience overthinking my own culpability in an accident and what I could have done to not be a potential vector. Of course, it means I'll be getting my vaccine(s) Sunday afternoon and on Saturday I have a vet appointment to get Audrey's CBC checked to make sure we're good to step down her prednisone AND my eye appointment so I can order more contacts AND on Tuesday I have to take my grandma to a dental appointment for her first time meeting her new dentist then that evening going up to APT with my maman and Crissy to see their production of Stones In His Pockets, last APT play for the 2022 season.) But y'know, why not? Knock on wood, the only shots I've ever had bad reactions to were all ones that used pork gelatin to bind the live virus -- and that was a reaction to the pork proteins not to the shots themselves. But hte most important part is that it will not be DURING the Packers game on Sunday because Packers are an evening game.
3) BLOODY SUNRISE!!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!! NEIL GAIMAN RELEASED A MUSIC VIDEO FOR A SONG HE WROTE AND THEN WORKED WITH FOURPLAY STRING QUARTET TO MAKE REAL!!!!!!!!!!!! AND I LOVE IT SO FUCKING MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A new Spooky Season dark Goth video full of gorgeous strings parts and pretty dresses and lamps in the graveyard and supernatural beings who just want to be loved and sparkles of light and darkness!!!!!! And o all the campiness!!! And the horror story where you cheer for the traditional "monster" who's misunderstood and mistreated by the world! the upbeat not a love song of disappointed love in it!!!! And the blurring of the lines between living and dead and undead and not truly living!!!! And the ways it all the mythic folklore symbolism and geeky Easter Eggs to make my nerd heart laugh in absolute delight!!!! Like the old 70s Doctor Who on the old TV saying the line form the show that prompted the titular line and the drinking grave diggers from Hamlet with their lanterns and every visual trope of the vampire genre!!!!!
I'm so happy and pleased with this song and this video!!!!!! It has all the elements and things that I love and that suit my aesthetic and that make my heart and my head and my color-timbre synesthesia so very happy with both the song and the video!!!!!!!!!
And I can't WAIT for the rest of the songs they did together!!!!! Neil Gaiman is such a beautifully quirky wordsmith, but to my knowledge this is his first foray into song writing as opposed to fiction writing!!!!
O I'm so happy!!!! What a delightful Samhain treat!!!!!!!! It's just so perfectly my vibe and aesthetic in every possible way and I had absolutely no idea about it until I saw the tweet from NeilHimself about the song!!!!!!!
I'm so happy about everything about this song and this video and the promise of an entire album full of strings arrangements and harmonies over a 50s do-whop melody/rhythm and shimmery white-gold-copper spangled vocals and the storytelling of Neil Gaiman!!! It makes me grin so huge to have it stuck in my head and all night I've just been wandering about singing, "Bloody sunrise comes again, leaves me hungry and alone. Every time. Bloody sunrise comes again, and I'm nowhere to be found. Every time. And you're a memory and gone, something else I can blame on bloody sunrise. And you're a memory and gone, something else that I can blame on bloody sunrise."
O I have such a happy for this song and video release!!!! And you don't want to know how many of the 15k views in 15 hours since it's release are from me!
I'm so happy that my cheeks hurt from all the smiling and my squeeing has definitely reached pitches only dogs can hear in between times of singing along with the song or singing it from it being stuck in my head!!!! Seriously, I am still THIS level of happy after having it for six hours now in my ears and my head and before my eyes and my future promise of more than just the single Bloody Sunrise:
Look, I'm a girl who knows what she likes and gets transcendentally happy and beaming gratitude when she finds the things that make her happy and is allowed to have them to light up her life!!!!! Always have been. I try to control my anger because it's dangerous and I tend to keep my sorrows to myself rather than upset other people -- but o my joys do I shine bright as any star to share with everyone the light of my happiness and delight in the things that light me up with joy. I never overthink beaming my joy into this world -- the world has too much of heartache and darkness and everyone needs whatever light and joy they can find to lighten their life path. So my happiness is always shiny, and the happier something/someone makes me, the brighter and shinier I get. It's how I am this life with all my emotions and my honesty..
And this song and this video from one of my favorite favorite living authors ticks all the boxes of things to delight me!!!! I can't remember the last time I've been THIS level of happy shiny delighted by the discovery of a new to me artist whose video I stumbled across by chance!!! It's been so many years since a video and song release made me this happy!
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