Infinite Facets

Omg I have been so fucking angry all morning and I just need to vent..... Because I'm so fucking angry......Not even hangry, just angry..... Luckily, I didn't discover the source of my anger until AFTER I'd made eggs and coffee and now it's nearly lunch and Ian just went to go pickup Firehouse subs for the office before I have to start my car next and I haven't (yet) seriously fried anything electrical that's important. Lights flickered and the fans he'd plugged in stopped working when he first told me and my phone apps all locked up until I calmed down again after venting to my mom about the situation once I showed up and my da told me he'd just made a fresh pot of coffee ready for me. Probably not ideal that I'm this angry and at a computer repair shop until I take my grandma to her appointments, but I'm hiding myself away in the conference room with my purse book (which is Steve Erickson's These Dreams of You which is supposed to be really important read good but so far is just post-capitalist housing crisis and racial tensions "damn modern society is pretty effed up and depressing" as a read and so I'm having a hard time making headway in it or wanting to read it so far.... I'm about ready to decide to put it on hold and read Mexican Gothic before I come back to this book....)

I have some time still to eat lunch and drink more coffee and tea and chill myself before I head over to my grandma's at 2 to take her for her covid and flu vaccinations and then her podiatry appointment. Because my 84 year old sparrow grandma (being a Scorpio) does not deserve to be riled up by my agitation and anger at other people..... Thus my need to vent....

So.Venting.

It's actually rather lucky I need to take my grandma to some appointments today because it meant that I had made breakfast early and was dressed for the day instead of sitting around in my pjs reading until eventually making brunch rather than breakfast. It meant I was dressed and could be easily ready to just leave for the day when I went to take the dog out around 10 (rainy cold day so she didn't want to go on a walk before made us eggs) which is when I learned from the maintenance guy sweeping the halls that they had showed showed up to start painting that apparently they're painting my hall with Killz -- including the floors so nobody can walk on them where the newly put in 3 years ago carpet was removed earlier this year without any warning due to my neighbors from hell who had moved in AFTER that new carpet was installed but having been blaming the new carpets as a potential reason that the hallway odors on their end of the hall are so bad.... These are the neighbors who within 3 months of moving in turned their heat completely off while in California for the winter and burst their unit's pipes which flooded their own unit completely and was discovered by their downstairs neighbors complaining about ceiling leaks.... It's been ever since the reclamation project from that water damage that THEY did to try to save on energy bills while out of town (and NOBODY who lives where you have real winter is dumb enough to turn their heat off completely or to have external taps left on without the water constantly running because fucking physics that when water isn't moving an it freeze it expands and the pressure will burst the fucking pipes....and these are people who have lived in Wisconsin since I was in high school because before they were my neighbors, their son worked at out family computer store.) Anyway, following them flooding their unit and destroying someone else's condo is when the odors started in their end of the hall. And I've owned my condo been living there for over a decade, since my last year of college and the neighbor across the hall from them whose cats they keep blaming for the smells has lived there longer than me.... Anyway, so the Beans constantly leave nasty accusatory notes on the hallway door about the smells being toxic and bitch to condo management over the hallway odors and have left the fire door on the stairs propped open prompting verbal warnings about fire code and potential fines from the fire department. They have been rude and awful to me since I'm the unit closest to the fire door and I refuse to leave the door open against fire code when I've been personally warned by condo management, security, and the fire department about it breaking fire code.... but they have been downright abusive verbally and in their notes on the doors to the disabled man down the hall whose cats they blame for the formaldehyde and ammonia offgassing smells... So the Beans JUST left town last week for the winter flying first class to go to L.A. where their son now lives (I know this because they are facebook friend with my parents and my aunt -- and it is because the wife knows my aunt that their son ended up working at the store like 15 years ago) and I was looking forward a rest from their complaints and abusiveness.... But no, they have spent the last week WHILE THEY ARE NOT EVEN IN THE BUILDING complaining yet again about the smell -- even though they won't even be here to deal with the migraines and nausea from the fumes while the paint cures and the new carpet replacement off gasses over the winter when I can't even have my windows open to air out my condo from fumes that come in under my door or when I'm in the hall.... And on top of that, because of the bitching from the Beans FROM CALIFORNIA now they have nothing to do with their retired asses free time except complain, they got maintenance to agree YESTERDAY afternoon to paint the floors an walls of my hallway with Killz without having notified anyone who IS in town and having to deal with this inconvenience until 9:06pm last night that we weren't going to be able to touch the walls or walk on the floors of the hall until it dries....including to let dogs out because the dogs will get paint on their paw pads.... When I talked to the maintenance guy (who was very nice and it wasn't his fault, he waited until 10 to start so people could get to work and everything -- and he genuinely thought that we'd been informed which technically we were but with only 12 hours warning before he was scheduled to come do this job) he was very apologetic and said he understood because he doesn't always check his emails after dinner either. And I told him that the neighbors down the hall often come home on their lunch break to let their dog out and I didn't know if they had been informed or checked their emails.... (Their dog Wookie was loudly barking throughout this because she's part dachshund as well as part lab and so barks CONSTANTLY -- all the dachshunds I know are almost as bad as beagles for barking at every noise they hear and every delivery person they ever meet and every time a stranger comes to visit and when their people come home and...they're cute and sweet and I love my cousins dog Cocoa who is one of the few dogs I know older than my Audrey Pupburn but 90% of dachshunds I've ever known or met are VERY noisy dogs. Love to be friends with them, would never want to own one. Also their back and hip problems if they're ever allowed to do any stairs or jump up or down off couches/chairs/beds/car seats are heartbreaking to watch. They're an always purse dog lifted in and out of everywhere or ramps but no stairs or you can cause permanent damage to them breed of dogs... Corgis are the same. I would also never want to own a flat faced brachycephalic breed or mix because of their chronic breathing and overheating issues that can become deadly. I have issues with inbreeding deformities that cause health problems for dogs that are otherwise wonderful animals. I'd also never want a chihuahua or chihuahua mix because they have teeth and jaw issues AND they high pitched yip bark constantly. So I would not choose to own or adopt any of the breeds with known inbreeding deformities that are painful and deadly -- however if any dog of those breeds found its way into my life and chose me I would love it and care for it and welcome it into my home and my household as one of my own. I just wouldn't choose one of these breeds of my own volition because the needless suffering and pain is hard for me as an empath to have to watch.....) So with the neighbor's dog yelping and Audrey huffing at Wookie to try to reassure her, the maintenance man called the office to see if they had directly called them (or anyone else who would be home today) and then as I left he was yelling at the people at the office for only communicating via email sent that late and not finding out if the people who are actually in town would need to be home during the hours nobody was supposed to be walking on the floor if he repainted it....

I'm just so fucking pissed they pulled this bullshit when they're not even in town to have to live with the inconvenience and smells but were nasty enough putting pressure on condo management that they rushed this to make it extra inconvenient for the people who are physically living in the building right now.... The Beans are my least favorite neighbors I have ever had anywhere I have ever lived tbh - and that includes when I lived downtown right on campus and had noisy drunks walking by at all hours all the the time. The Beans are just very selfish and entitled and never seem to think of consequences of their actions to anyone but themselves, they think the rules don't apply to them but go all HSA Karen on anyone else about breaking rules. And don't get me started about them using two parking stall in the garage when the second is for the rental unit in the other building and how they park their boat in the parking lot so as to block the driveway into the garage and people can't get around them and the dumpsters and the near accidents that their boat has caused....)

But now, this means that whenever I do finally go home, because of them painting the Killz (which may not even be dry tonight) I'm going to be suffering from migraines and nausea and fainting spells lightheadedness from the fumes (I'm highly sensitive to chemicals that are toxic to everyone over long term exposure but which make me immediately physically sick from small exposures) every time I come home until it airs out which now that it's winter who KNOWS when that will be?! And I'm just so angry at the rudeness of them pushing this with so little notice that they needed it done immediately when they left for the winter so don't even have to deal with any of the consequences and now I'm going to be so sick even when wearing my kn95 in the hallway.... and the fumes getting into my condo are going to make me unable to eat or possibly even sit up in bed without dry heaving let alone be good enough to drive....

And then in the ongoing drama of the eclipse, they messed up both my dad's and my sub (put his cold toppings on my hot toppings and vice versa) so now he's in an absolutely godawful mood because he didn't even notice that he was eating caramelized green peppers until after he had already eaten half his sub..... and then he's been pissy about how much he hates green peppers and everyone knows that and who eats or orders peppers on anything.... He didn't mind having my mushrooms (which are an extra $1.50) but lord did he have a conniption about the peppers AFTER he ate an entire half before noticing..... 🤣 (My da, dearly as I adore him, is a Capricorn sun, Leo moon, Taurus rising who gets the hangers -- so when people mess up his food it's extremely personal for him.) So I swapped him half of mine which meant no black olives for me and then I and to pick out his cucumber cubes he'd got on the one that had my peppers and mushrooms because they were too seedy and thick times for me. (I'm really picky about cucumbers.... I don't like the rind too thick and I don't like the seeds or when they're goopy soft in the center.... I only like the firm part of cucumbers and only when they're nice and crisp and chilled. Never on like a hot sub like these.) Also there was corned beef/pastrami mixed in with the sliced brisket on both subs. Luckily it wasn't bacon or pork or I'd be violently I'll right now..... But it was unexpected for both of us. The dogs were pleased though at the extra gifts of meat, lol.

Anyway. I have to go now to my grandma's to get her ready for her appointments then get her to them and I'm a bit better after venting about how inconsiderate fucking assholes my neighbors are.... Better enough to smile and compartmentalize my anger to deal with later so I can be pleasant and upbeat cheerful and positive with my grandma.

Here's some pictures from earlier this morning (before I talked to the maintenance guy and checked to see if there had been an email late last night about them painting Killz in the hallways today) before I got angry. With the sparkly danse macabre pillow my mom bought me back in August when spooky season stuff first strated showing up in stores.