Earlier today (well yesterday now,  but I didn't sleep,  so hush!) Mikaela said something that shook me.  Deeply.

We were both upset over the continued lack of snow.  And she said matter-of-factly,  "Dani.  You haven't got angry at it yet,  have you?"
Dani,  "Well no.  Mostly I've just been sad over it all.  Haven't gotten past that to get angry.  Just sadly accepting it."
Mikaela (nodding emphatically): "Thay's what I thought.  I didn't feel you get angry over the lack of snow. Because when you get angry, you're scary.  Not a little scary.  REALLY scary.  that's why I say you're a Lady Polar Bear.  It won't snow til you get good and angry at it.  Because that's how you heal,  you get angry at things that are wrong and you put up a fight to fix things."
Dani: "Yeah.  But.  This year it just weighed on me made me sad. You've been angry though."
Mikaela : "Yeah,  but me angry isn't like you weather witching anger.  Maybe a little,  if I really want what you want,  I can help you. But my anger does nothing by itself.  you're the powerful force.  You need to get angry to change anything.  Including to make it FINALLY snow.  If you don't get angry at how wrong it is,  who knows when we'll EVER get snow....."

So then,  at my grandma's,  I glared up at the skies and felt that spark of anger and I full force glared at the skies thought,  "It's fucking past time.  You are going to snow a real snow,  godsdamnit!"

And then,  just like that,  a few flakes filtered down and I grinned went inside to my grandma's before her pt appointment.

I got back and before I could say anything or even set the keys in the bowl by the door,  Mikaela said completely self-satisfied,  "You got angry at it.  Finally.  Didn't you?"
I was taken aback said,  "I.  Well.  Yes.  I did.  How did you know?"
Mikaela (shrugged),  "I felt it.  So then I kept reloading the weather. Watched it change from scattered flurries to 1-2" then 2-4" then added a weather advisory.  I've been cackling over it whenever I took a break from reading Pride & Prejudice to Audrey and Spock and Crystal."

But I found that interesting,  her telling me that I heal things by getting angry at something that isn't right then defying it choosing to fight it. I never thought of it quite that way,  but she's 100% right about me.

And,  this is SUCH a gorgeous sparkly 3" of snow!!! 😁 and it didn't really start til I finished my errands of the afternoon/evening got to work around 5ish.

Also,  I'm FINALLY going to read cover to cover voraciously The Winternight Trilogy!  I bought the first one then waited AGES for the other two to be released in paperback. I started the first book <i>The Bear and the Nightingale</i> earlier in the week before Christmas, but had to set it aside because it's retelling of fairytales set in Russian winter ABOUT winter daemons and it made me sad for the lack of snow so I couldn't enjoy it as I knew I ought and I told myself I'd binge read it as soon as the next snow came to stay.  Because it's a snow and red wine (and maybe a cozy hearthfire if I get some more wood) sort of series.

But this,  this is perfect now!!!  😍 Finally!!