O I know I know.... Eric didn't intend or expect my reaction to his instas to be revulsion or icks. I know he didn't.  And his POINT is how shitty and non-inclusive it is that success in country music is to be a white man -- a point that OUGHT to have resonated with me as he was showing his feminist side and his outrage that  "this is a really small sliver of humanity and how is this all that's represented?!" I understand that was what he intended. But frankly, expecting ANYTHING else in country radio is like expecting the current White House administration to actually give someone competent the post. Any female or person of color success in the country music genre is the outlier of the system and happened usually because they were famous elsewhere or they had friends with money/fame to spread their fame.  It's always been a white identity politics genre, ALWAYS. It started off racist history and the racism and misogyny is endemic to this day in the genre. THAT'S JUST HOW IT IS.  It doesn't matter how many not even c list white chick country artists you befriend trying to change that, that's the genre. Racist whites IS the target demographic of country music. ALWAYS HAS BEEN. Always will be. And I guarantee that if you start scratching the surface, MOST of your friends who love country music or are in that part of the industry ARE white racists under the surface.

On top of that, by playing it and sharing it, all he did was cause me physical pain from the vocals. That will never go away NO MATTER WHAT YOUR POINT IS when you play country vocalists. That's just how it is for me..... Even if you're bashing them, by playing the songs, you're still causing me the same physical pain due to the synesthesia that you'd be causing me if you were playing it saying how much you liked it... the pain is the same if you play the offkey vocals. I know he was bashing it, but it was still causing just as much physical pain to me as if he were praising it.....

AND, on top of that, ANYTHING to do with ANY country artist from him or anyone in his band automatically puts my hackles up makes me defensive BECAUSE of the way that Liz and Britt treated me trying to defend that career choice.  I don't think you realize JUST how awful their responses to me (and other people) have been getting defensive about their choice to try to succeed at country raduo and defending their pitchy vocalled country friends when Delta Rae fans didn't like it. because Delta Rae old school loyal fan base ARE NOT COUNTRY MUSIC FANS by and large. And the influx of country music fans (who ARE white identity politics Republicans) has actually STOPPED people from continuing to support the band they loved because the concert going experience is just not fun with that element included.  And it really doesn't matter if Heather is your friend or Jessie's friend -- she sounded REALLY fucking TERRIBLE and pitchy. And I don't fucking blame the audience for talking over her -- she was BAD. Like most of the artists they've had open for them since they have tried to find a way to belong in the country music scene.

So i get that he expected his post to find favor with me and I understand that he was doing more than being salty over the way his band failed in that genre and all of Jessie's friends who are now his friends can't succeed so they just sit in nashville and bitch about it being their genitals not their pitchy ass offkey vocals that are the reason they can't succeed -- and if it had been about ANYTHING other than country music, he'd have succeeded. but the moment it was a playstation game about singing COUNTRY music, he killed any chance of conveying anything to me other than me pulling away having a revulsion reaction toward him. The mistake was in 1) expecting anything but pitchy ass bad vocals and misogynistic white identity politics from anything to do with country music because that IS the target demographic of country music and 2) thinking that bringing up country music or anyone involved in it in any context would ever have ANY reaction but a negative one from me.

But I do recognize his intention was to show support for women and his feminism and ally to the under-represented side. things that NORMALLY should have appealed to me. He just picked that absolute WORST context he could possibly have found to try to make that point.....

I can acknowledge his intention while still recognizing the reality of the results as how I'll always react to him posting anything playing country music or having anything to do with anyone in the genre....