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I know I've been a bit quiet here again (also on my socials) but it wasn't really a me re-calibrating or overthinkging stillness like it was across most of the autumn. This was more waiting for the world to catch up on what I've spent months processing and while the collective emotional pendulums are swinging wildly I chose to focus my energy and attention on an intentional turning into my own cozy hygge of existence in a physical body and focusing on what brings delight in the isness of it within ones life (even if the joy is a night out for dinner and drinks or symphony or a football game with family/friends. Or even the simplest (but sometimes most profoundly soul feeding) cozy joys of literally just spending a chilly Nov day in front of a crackling day with a close friend like a chosen bonus little sister and a cuddly purring cat and a snuggly happy puppy drinking coffee and tea and keeping laundry moving along and reading and sketching and chatting or enjoying the comfortable shared silences.) I took a reprieve and a rest while things slip into place and the fatelines start settling down a bit in the joys of this life as it is right now and the people/animals within my life who love me enough to choose me and miss me in my absences. I need more of it (but I'll get some while in the Seattle area with my sister's family for so much of Dec) but I have to get the have tos done and I'm running out of time so the want tos soul recharging will have to be caught in tiny bites. (Tuesday Mikaela (born into Jehovah's Witness family so her holiday traditions are helping this old soul pagan Jewish elf witch setup her Yule tree decorate) is planning to get dropped off and we're going to setup my Christmas tree take out my holiday things so I can enjoy it for three weeks before I leave town AND Spock can sleep on the Nightmare Before Christmas tree skirt through my absence as he loves to do. I'm conflicted what I'm going to do though because living by myself with fur babies but no kids, rather than leave the under the tree empty I honor my love of Nightmare Before Christmas because NORMALLY I leave all of Halloween decorations organized UNDER my Yule tree during the time of the Sun god's death before his rebirth and then put it away at midnight between Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. It honors Jack Skellington and Sandy Claws AND the older mythos of what happens between worlds from Samhain until solstice of the longest night. And that appeals to me very much. Last year though I was also at my sister's family for Christmas/Channukah and so I left a Spock sized space on the tree skirt with the res of Halloween under the tree until after I got home and did the switch crossing from New Year's Eve into New year's Day.... I'll figure it out. But I AM going to put up my holiday decorations early at home and work this coming week instead of waiting until the (very late this year) Thanksgiving/Black Friday when I normally do it so I can have three weeks loving MY holiday decorations leading up to the holidays ahead beforehand then three weeks of my sister's family's decorations and then the afterglow when I get home before I put it all away for another year. I may do my Channukah lights/prayers in my menorah (that my sister actually bought me as a gift when we were in college and a matching one for herself but is glazed slightly differently and she let me choose between the two which colors I preferred) do double candles each night once I'm back or something... My sister's family will do the first three nights with me but I can't do them on the red eye obviously may miss that night and then finish the last nights once I'm home? Or start at the start for at home because the timing matters less to me than the doing it day after day near it in time? Or do double each night upon my return like 1st then 5th, then 2nd & 6th, then 3rd & 7th then 4th and 8th? I dunno man, I'll figure it out.... I have a little time still to figure it out, lol.) This is actually a fairly light week for me to hygge AND get have tos done now actually -- my grandma got covid last week (which isn't good but she's been on paxlovid and is doing better now and having meals delivered while 10 day quarantined from the dining hall) and has been in forced quarantine due to the outbreak in her building so both her appointments this week have now been rescheduled which frees up my Thurs & Fri of this week.

I've also been trying to get practical things done of chores and things I've been putting off neglecting my practical opposite sign Virgo descendant adulting things that I need done before I leave to visit my sister and family for three weeks in Dec. I fly out of Madison at like 6:30am on Dec 10 with a several hour layover Minneapolis to get into to SeaTac early afternoon and then I fly back on a red eye Dec 29 with the couple hour layover in Detroit to be back in Madison at 9:30am on Dec 30. And I'll be heading in to work pretty quickly in the day after getting dropped off at home with my luggage and spending some time with my cat sleeping before getting in my car because I will have a LOT of work to get caught up on as well as on the 31 I will have to get an end of month deposit done which has to be done before the month/year can be closed out for accounting AND also busting arse to try to get as much of my 40 hours in across the Sat-Sun-Mon before my early morning flight (AND I have my many times rescheduled eye appointment at 9:20am Monday before I fly out and I hope to G-d they have samples or contacts in stock because I've been hoarding reusing my last pair of monthly contacts I opened in August and have been constantly having this damn appointment cancelled/rescheduled since first scheduling it in September and it's been so frustrating a process for me just trying to get my damn optometry appointment done....) I'm so happy that Saturn in Pisces has FINALLY gone direct.... I swear to G-d, everyone says that your natal Saturn returns are hard (and they can be for  some people) but I find it transiting my rising sign (ESPECIALLY the retrograding back and forth across my rising sign) going from endings/hidden enemies into beginnings/self expression the hardest.... First pass from 12th hours to first house was when my alternator went and had to be replaced and needed new tires and a new serpentine belt then as it retrograded back from first to twelfth house I had my fridge stop working defrost everything lose all the remainign harvest from the previous year stored in my freezer (and with Mercury back and forth it took three attempts to get a Costco delivery of an undamaged fridge able to move the hinges to the correct side to open in the small space of my galley kitchen) and then as it moved back from my twelfth to first house was when I had the gushing flooding water issue of the old garbage disposal completely corroding and the backflow dripping down through the dry wall into my downstairs neighbors needing immediate fix.... They were both old water related things that were in the condo when I bought it moved in around 15 years ago now (when Saturn was exactly opposite on my descendant) and it has just been so necessary but fucking difficult like pulling teeth to get adulting things done and my money just trickling away disappearing so I don't have much wiggle room even for book buying as Saturn moved across then backward then back across my ascendant midway in Pisces..... WAY harder the level of concrete home related (Virgo opposite of Pisces, I know) adulting I've had to figure out and do that have required multiple tries and layers of unnecessary that's been like pulling fucking teeth... Whereas my Saturn return was in my 8th house (trine my rising) as part of my Scorpio stellium (with Pluto and Venus, all close but none conjunct -- my stellium where mars and Neptune are conjunct is my Sagittarius stellium) so my Saturn return was really about deaths and rebirths within spirituality and the waking up of new/greater gifts and powers within what I already was dealing with and the potentials for me to consider for merging of life paths from the 5d into everyday 3D level of things. Heavy and probably hard for those who don't swim in deep spiritual waters as their normal state of being, but not nearly as hard as practical real world breaking/defrosting/flooding of things in my kitchen and needing repairs and money being shoestring budgets.

I'm just saying, I am looking forward so much to Saturn moving on from Pisces to make it easier for me to get the practical things done and hopefully my normal easy flowing luck with money and pennies from heaven just enough to scrape by having a reward life of what brings me genuine joy  in living because the modern world is a fucking mess I don't want to invest what matters to me within the corrupt socio-economic system.

Like I said, imho of astrology from observation not study or belief, Saturn transiting through your rising sign especially when it goes back and forth between twelfth and first house is WAY harder than navigating natal Saturn returns... And I'm very much looking forward to Saturn moving on into Aries. (I know I know, it will retrograde back into Pisces again one last time Sept 1 2025 and won't be finally for keeps back in Aries til February 13 2026 so we will be revisitng the karmic themes we've dealt with since March 7 2023 when Saturn first moved into Pisces BUT it's only going back to 25 degrees Pisces so it might be tricky for Pisces placements the ways that the karmic growth and dealing with real world practical has been tricky these recent year, but not going back and forth across my ascendant level of tricky.

Anyway. I don't even remember what I was going to write here when I sat down... I think I mostly just realized it had been a little while again since I last wrote here and maybe I should reassure that I'm not overthinking or doing anything stupid or making any choices that can't be unmade or dealing with new sets of immutable precogs... (I still can't precog anyone being sworn in and I have no insights into the why/how of that.) Just focusing on my own life have tos and cozy hygge joys in life and the people/animals I love who love me enough to choose to be IN my life right now. And don't assume if I get quiet again during my next while of heads down focusing my energy/love/attention on my lived life in this body and this life at this time -- because I might but it's not personal or a concern, just me allocating the time I have before I leave in the ways that are the need tos of practical and the needs tos of soul/heart of what/who is choosing to be IN my life at this time.

O thinking of which. I haven't posted since I got Spock's blood work numbers back, have I? He's somewhere in stage 2 feline CKD (chronic kidney disease) probably early stage 2 but it depends on the metric youre looking at from his tests. but his numbers and tests looked good enough that for now I am to keep him on kidney management good and recheck his levels in 6 months. (Presuming he doesn't take a sudden nose dive in health.) Here is from her actual email of his results if you want numbers, "I would call things about stable.  His Creatinine was 2.4 (normal is 0.6-2.2).  He was at 2.3 at last check.  His BUN was 33 (normal is 15-40).  He was at 30 at last check.  Finally the SDMA was 16 (normal is 0-14).  He was 25 at his last check" That said, he's under 11.9lbs now and he's given me a bit of a scare this week not eating for a couple days and then today he ate too much and then started coughing until he threw some of it up... Hopefully it doesn't mean he's suddenly worse. Basically, at this point, every day and every snuggle and every purr are bonus days/snuggles/purrs with my 15.5 year old sweet piano loving Taurus kitten. 

Unrelated but I love Bluesky from what I've seen of the level of discourse going on there because it's what I once loved in twitter before it devolved into X and I think it could be great for me again aggregating real news about the things I care about most (environment, human rights, bio/medical discoveries, science/engineering, random interesting things, real discussions, etc.) and the chances of needing to have established points of access to not state controlled media/propaganda may soon be very important starting next year.... But also, I haven't had the desire/energy yet to rebuild and start searching and trying to find everyone I found worth following back over when twitter was useful to me as social media. Like I want back what I had, but also I don't have the energy to try to start rebuilding my feeds from scratch.... I haven't deactivated my old twitter yet (it is off my phone and has been for a while because I don't trust the muskrat -- I told you before he is Harvey Dench and I still believe that and don't trust him whatsoever) so I could just go through name by name everyone I used to follow and see if they've moved to bluesky or not.... I'm not sure I like my user name I chose (literally Dani-ella because I wasn't feeling creative enough and it wasn't taken and I didn't want to include last name or numbers or anything at this time, my profile picture is literally a pic of my Audrey Pupburn who died over a year and a half ago, although not the same one that is my insta profile pic.)  Maybe I will want to start rebuilding in a bit, but I'm not there right now with all the everything of this part of the timeline and the fate lines it's on... Sometimes rebuilding from nothing feels like too much energy compared to just letting go of what you once loved.  But the level of actual discourse and discussion and education there is a breath of fresh air after so long without easy ways to aggregate the information I used to easily find. And it's been a long time since scrolling brought me excitement and intellectual curiosity. But so far, all I've done is pin some threads for info to find accounts of interest, not really followed many people except Frank and the bookish tweeter whose name i can't remember right now but who I follow on other socials and haven't really even started liking things to train the algos -- because while I LIKE beautiful photography of the full moon on water and random cats and quotes/covers of books, I don't have enough other data points that liking those posts won't flood out the content I actually desire from the science/news/environmental/civil rights posts. I also checked music as an interest, but haven't (yet) seen any suggestions for that other than searching up Frank turner it was the most Frank single post ever so I buy it's actually him.) I'll just keep chipping away at it slowly following people as I find them. 

All that said. As nice as it is to have my weird sub sections of academic/news/science/literature/arts/music twitter back, creating a whole separate social media for intelligentsia to morrow the maga only social media instead of one crazy chaotic mixed bag of everyone is going to increase silo effect hearing only those who agree with you even more than curated algos ever could.... This is going to widen the divides not bridge or help educate. It's going to radicalize people further into the "my team is always right and anyone who disagrees must be degenerate" dangerous mindset. And it certainly won't help the idea that Democrats are elite at intelligentsia who look down on everyone else.... Yes I can find what I want and what I have missed over there, but I also recognize it's making the divide more permanent when you're not even speaking in the same social media rooms. It's going to feed the already crazy amounts of polarization and bothering that demonizes the "enemy" when you confront the other.... And I don't know how that gets bridged or if it even can be at this point.

 

Ah wait now, you want the most recent Astro Poets email/substack extended horoscopes for Libra & Pisces? This week Libra talks more with other signs than Pisces (especially Gemini and Scorpio) but also it doesn't not dialogue with what has been coming before.

"Week of 11/10 in Libra: Love and all that has meaning. A yellow flower filled with magical spice. Your dreams of everything tender and sweet. Hold in the embrace. Love truly with the thing that lasts."

"Week of 11/10 in Pisces: Some pieces of stones. They can begin to see what can be felt. You know how much feeling it takes to write the song. Now perform. Now say it to whoever will listen."

"Week of 11/17 in Libra: You don’t need a reminder to love. And yet there is something in the sky that reminds you. Everything begins with sweetness. Take that with you finally. Love will bring you green things."

"Week of 11/17 in Pisces: You can know this part. Tell yourself that it is all part of the whole story even. But when you are ready know that you can see it as clearly as you want to. Collect the pennies there. Put them in the river." 

wait.... Did I share the 10 in my last catch up? I know it was after the 3, but was it after the 10? Eh, I don't feel like going back to look to try to figure it out. If I did then you can look at them in dialogue or just ignore the dup0licate. Whatever you prefer. I don't feel like going to the effort of going back to try to figure out which post I had caught up on the missing ones to know if that included the 10 or not.... 

Wanna know what IS interesting about the one from this week? I have insisted since as long as I can remember this life that I do NOT want diamonds at all in my wedding ring because they're actually my least favorite stone (this whole life I find diamonds the most soulless of all gemstones as they only reflect light but have no color or flash or substance or depth of their own, their perfection is their ability to reflect/refract the light from outside of them by their perfect geometry of stacked carbons that makes them a transparent mirror due to their complete lack of anything of their own, they're just over priced disco balls) BUT in 6th grade I got the precog flash of it on my hand and recognized the rightness of it for me so have known since I was 12 or 13 that the wedding band I want for myself is a channel set eternity band of matched emeralds. I even found an antique ring of matched green crystals set in silver that I wore all the time in middle school until the day it disappeared off my finger in the middle of writing an English essay and nobody could find it anywhere... Anyway, the first thing I thought of when I read earlier today "Love will bring you green things." is that I've known with unwavering certainty since I was 12 or 13 that I want channel set matched emeralds for my wedding band whenever i have one to wear.... Are they emeralds for the Emerald isle or because of all places in the US best known for having emeralds is NC or for May Taurus/Gemini? I dunno. I just know an eternity band of channel set matched emeralds is what I want for myself as wedding ring -- and if you look up the symbolism of emeralds you'll understand why symbolically emeralds  are a more perfect representative of what love SHOULD be than a the diamond's soulless empty transparent bit of reflection and refraction but no color/flash/substance of its own